“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now over here we have great energy, and because I am aware of your conversations, strong power that is being withheld out of caution and fear. You have a strong core of energy tested too early and not under the best of circumstances, though at the time you may have believed so. You are much easier now, but at the time, there was an explosion of energy on your part that you did not understand, and you were afraid that in this explosion of energy you would go too far outward and there would be nothing left, so to speak, that you would get away from yourself and lose yourself beyond all hopes of recovery.

Now regardless of what you may think, consciously, the hypnosis experiments did, indeed, upset you, and part of you regarded them as coercion and this you highly resented so that you sent a part of yourself where the other part of yourself did not want to go. And so you went but with faltering steps. You were enthralled, as you are enthralled, but you were underneath much more cautious.

Now Ruburt did not know what he was going to speak about this evening and half of his talk in class is automatic, as you know, but it was no coincidence that he became involved in his talk of power and energy for you had a deep distrust of your own energy to sway people as a salesman (to Davey) as you had a distrust of your ability to sway people as a minister (to Joel) and as you also have the same feeling (to Davey), for what happens is this.

Now I am speaking, in your terms, for I understand the way that you feel. I have felt that way many times myself. I have also, however, been one of the ignorant masses, in your terms, who listened to the ringing through the centuries. I have been taken in by every kind of con game that the centuries have known and what you have forgotten is that so have you. You have been on both sides of the fence. You are learning to know what energy is and how to use it. Now you are on one side of the fence, in your terms, but you have been on the other sides.”

(To Ron L.) I am not looking for questions, but you have been the emotional mother that you are now trying to forget, and you have been swept by those emotions that you are now afraid to release, and you have felt them as a river and have been afraid of where they would lead you.

Now, again, each of you have available to you the energy that sweeps through this frame. You can use it in whatever way you choose, but you will use it, and you use it every moment that you are alive and every moment that, in your terms, you are not alive. You are using it creatively whether you know it or not, and it shouts through you even though you purse your lips, and it speaks through you even though you tense your muscles to hide it. Therefore, it behooves you to become friends with it.

It is a gesture showing my exuberance. It is not always appreciated, but I can make a lovelier (word lost)  and, as my close friends here know, it is also a very simple demonstration to show you that I am not a spooky old spirit at all. And that the emotions survive the body of which you are so proud.

([Gert:] “During psy time I got a picture, I think of myself, as a man standing in a grassy area, like someone’s backyard, and a woman. There were three children. She carried one on her right hip and I would say about 18 months old, about a two year old and a five year old, and the girl had braids, and they were looped around, and she had a big apron on. I didn’t see her face, but I got the feeling that she was my wife and that I was not being very compassionate or understanding to her. My question is, was this me or was it something I was picking up?”)

At the same time, however, you came into contact with merchants, quite unusual in this particular circumstance, coming up from Africa. This particular expedition was lost, and you divested the ship of its cargo with the help of the men on your ship, and of course without giving payment. Alae (spelled out), now that was the name of a particular type of cargo, perhaps algae, that was a part of the ships contents. There was also, however, some opium from Turkey. You made a killing on the opium in Holland. It is nearly impossible to find, for example, any proof or record of that transaction since you did not deal in contracts but relied upon your word of honor. In this case it meant taking the contents of the hold by force.

Now I will shortly leave you, but before I do there is something I would like you to try. First of all, listen to my voice. Use it. Attach your own energy to it also. Let the sound of its energy rouse you from your own sleeping. Let it then rouse your own energy, lift you from your sleep. Energy is not only eternal but limitless. There is no limit to the energy that is available to you. Therefore, you do not have to worry that what energy you use is, therefore, denied you in the future so open up the doors within yourselves.