“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(To Davey.) Now here we have a too early blooming of abilities before the overall personality was able to handle them, and we also have a great contrast in attitude for we have on one hand the determination to show up all fraud, and on the other hand, the fear underneath that our own experiences could somehow be fraudulent. And, therefore, you could not trust yourself and found yourself unable to continue. The dilemma came, therefore, and you avoided the field of endeavor.

Now Ruburt did not know what he was going to speak about this evening and half of his talk in class is automatic, as you know, but it was no coincidence that he became involved in his talk of power and energy for you had a deep distrust of your own energy to sway people as a salesman (to Davey) as you had a distrust of your ability to sway people as a minister (to Joel) and as you also have the same feeling (to Davey), for what happens is this.

If you can sway others so easily then what is there to them after all, for you know who you are and what you are and you do not think you are all that great. If they listen to you like sheep, then how can you look to them with respect? How can you think they are worth saving? How are they worth what you want to give or can give? They are not worth the while. This is what you think when you put out this fine energy to sell a product (to Davey) and this is what you think (to Joel). Whether or not you realize it, your conception of the human race changes, for if you can mold another that easily then where are these fine abilities inherent in the race as a whole.

(During break a discussion of Joel’s, Mary Ellen’s and Davey’s abilities and some felt they had not progressed very much.)

I am not finished with you, I was simply speaking in terms of one particular phenomena. I did not mean that others did not have strong abilities. These were simply examples of one case in point.