“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(To Edgar) Now, and I say this with utmost kindness and good nature, you can tell Ruburt that you have no feelings, and you can tell the class that you have no feelings, and you can tell others that you do not care what is said or done to you, but do not tell me. Now in your position, you of all people, should recognize feelings within yourself, the effects of others upon you and be even more vigilant of the effect of what you say upon others.

(To Maria) And the same applies to you. Now you are deceptive, slyly, in your own manner, to yourself, for it seems to you that you are very aware of your emotions, and that they are clear and out in front of you, and that you are an emotional person, and yet you hide them deeply and the emotions that you show are not the emotions often that you feel. And they are guises to hide other things that you do not face. This you should understand.

There is something that you can do. There is something that all of you can do, and I have told the class this many times, but you tend to forget it. You can become far more aware of your own thoughts and feelings than you are now. Now you have much more knowledge available to you. As a rule you do not admit this knowledge. A truth about yourself will pop to the surface of your mind, and you will shove it down quickly rather than take advantage of it. I am not speaking now only to you (Maria), but to everyone in the room, our friend, Ruburt, included.

You can become far more aware of your own thoughts and far more aware of your own honest attitudes. Often you do not approve of them, or they frighten you, and you shove them down into the other portions of your mind. There they can indeed do damage. If you get into the habit, however, of tuning into your own stream of consciousness you will find the person that sometimes will seem quite a stranger to you. And that person will be yourself. You will not only shove down ideas that seem negative, however, you will also shove down feelings of generosity, particularly toward people that you do not like, feelings of joy because you feel too guilty to think you should feel joy. You will shove down all kinds of impulses, and so you will not know yourself, and you will block off impulses that you really should accept, recognize and admit as portions of yourself.

(To Edgar) Now you should not sit back and say because a particular thing happened to me in the past I have this attitude. Once you realize that is the reason you must also know that you are an entire individual and can indeed change that pattern of reaction and feel within yourself that energy that you feel, that upsurge of strength and vitality that lets you know you can do this and court that feeling of energy and teach her to court it.