“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(To Maria) And the same applies to you. Now you are deceptive, slyly, in your own manner, to yourself, for it seems to you that you are very aware of your emotions, and that they are clear and out in front of you, and that you are an emotional person, and yet you hide them deeply and the emotions that you show are not the emotions often that you feel. And they are guises to hide other things that you do not face. This you should understand.

You can become far more aware of your own thoughts and far more aware of your own honest attitudes. Often you do not approve of them, or they frighten you, and you shove them down into the other portions of your mind. There they can indeed do damage. If you get into the habit, however, of tuning into your own stream of consciousness you will find the person that sometimes will seem quite a stranger to you. And that person will be yourself. You will not only shove down ideas that seem negative, however, you will also shove down feelings of generosity, particularly toward people that you do not like, feelings of joy because you feel too guilty to think you should feel joy. You will shove down all kinds of impulses, and so you will not know yourself, and you will block off impulses that you really should accept, recognize and admit as portions of yourself.