“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You can become far more aware of your own thoughts and far more aware of your own honest attitudes. Often you do not approve of them, or they frighten you, and you shove them down into the other portions of your mind. There they can indeed do damage. If you get into the habit, however, of tuning into your own stream of consciousness you will find the person that sometimes will seem quite a stranger to you. And that person will be yourself. You will not only shove down ideas that seem negative, however, you will also shove down feelings of generosity, particularly toward people that you do not like, feelings of joy because you feel too guilty to think you should feel joy. You will shove down all kinds of impulses, and so you will not know yourself, and you will block off impulses that you really should accept, recognize and admit as portions of yourself.

(To Edgar) Now you should not sit back and say because a particular thing happened to me in the past I have this attitude. Once you realize that is the reason you must also know that you are an entire individual and can indeed change that pattern of reaction and feel within yourself that energy that you feel, that upsurge of strength and vitality that lets you know you can do this and court that feeling of energy and teach her to court it.