“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

In the back of your mind you have wanted the girl to be a boy. You go out of your way permitting her to behave in what you think of as a feminine fashion. But in the back of your mind you still think that the male holds the position of leadership, and therefore, you resent your own feelings when you try to have the girl behave in that feminine manner. You are trying to order her to be something—a female—when in your heart you wished she was a male, and so when you try to order her about in the dream instead you speak to the brother who is a male, and your words do not make a physical impression. You have difficulty. This is involved, therefore, with previous experience that you have discussed and simply means that you need more work along those lines to clear your own feelings. You are projecting them upon the child and into the relationship. I suggest, however, that you use your own means to probe into those feelings so that you work them out for yourself.

(To Bette.) Now to our friend over here who should understand the reason for the question. Now if there is any discipline that I would tell you to adapt, it would be the discipline of joy which is spontaneous and from which, initially, all creativity comes. Within yourselves you understand the meaning of the word joy, then you will find no contradiction. Sorrow of itself can be negative or positive according to the reasons why you entertain it. Detachment can be negative or positive according to the reasons that you adapt it. Joy, faithfully followed, can lead you to the inner vitality that dwells within yourself and, hence, to All That Is.

If you understood and felt the joy within your own being, you would have no need of questions. You would know without words. If you would allow yourselves the freedom to meet, not some great teacher, not to run from teacher to teacher, but if you could meet the vitality within one cell, even one molecule of your body, you would have no need for questions.

(To Giovanni) Now I have a brief word that I would like to say to this one over here. Now first of all you are not afraid of psychic reality in any sense of the word. You are, however, worried about the nature of your own reality and worried about how far you want to follow into the nature of your own feelings. You are intrigued, therefore, but held back. There is nothing wrong with that. It is a stage of becoming. Accept it and do not think necessarily that you must be otherwise, for if you go along with the feelings that you honestly have at any given time, they will become the feelings. If, however, you try to hide them from yourself, then they become like knots that bind you.