“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

In the back of your mind you have wanted the girl to be a boy. You go out of your way permitting her to behave in what you think of as a feminine fashion. But in the back of your mind you still think that the male holds the position of leadership, and therefore, you resent your own feelings when you try to have the girl behave in that feminine manner. You are trying to order her to be something—a female—when in your heart you wished she was a male, and so when you try to order her about in the dream instead you speak to the brother who is a male, and your words do not make a physical impression. You have difficulty. This is involved, therefore, with previous experience that you have discussed and simply means that you need more work along those lines to clear your own feelings. You are projecting them upon the child and into the relationship. I suggest, however, that you use your own means to probe into those feelings so that you work them out for yourself.

So admit to yourself both your fascination with the nature of reality, and your own search. And admit also those misgivings that you have and that rise to the surface of your mind for even those can lead you somewhere. Do not feel inferior because it seems to you that this one (Nadine) is going further or quicker or faster. You each will go your own way. And you can hold your own.