“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now this inner drama cannot be understood by the ego, and so it is projected outward into external reality. Certain individuals, therefore, in history, certain geniuses, kings, priests, prophets, are touched by this light. All of the individuals living, in your terms, at that time have taken part in the same inner drama which is then exteriorized. The individuals then accept this projection upon themselves—the heroes, in other words, or the gods, or the prophets, or the kings. They are recognized intuitively when they appear on the exterior scene because in psychic life they have already been known, and in dream states these dramas have been worked out. They are recognized at once on the historical scene.

Now on the one hand their abilities and their power is based upon the inner ability and power of all of these, in your terms, alive in that particular era. However, they became what they seem to be for these chosen people have also accepted this role, and the exterior drama will be worked out in such a way that it makes sense within the time period in which it seems to take place. In this same framework, as the exterior drama begins to fade and as it has left meaning, in your terms, only now as time seems to pass, then once again the interior drama arises, but this time with a new story, with a different god and with new prophets; and as the old weakens so the new interior drama begins once more to arouse man from within his dreams, and again they choose and someone appears, or two or three, and a new drama is projected into external reality.

Now that is one level, and on another level you think, “I am of the earth and strong and vital, and those who rely upon such thin, high, intellectual matter do not know what they are talking about. I can be brutal in my honesty but at least I am honest and I do not play with words.” And this is a personality that you have set up for yourself because behind it all in the French court you glorified in the use of words, in the high play of intellect in what now to you would seem to be surface, artificial qualities of stereotyped verbal behavior. You are quite able to follow any discussion in this room and it is about time that you realized it and used those intellectual abilities that are your own, and it is about time that you stopped telling yourself that you do not understand that which you well understand. I am onto you.

(After break, to Bette.) Marseilles ...Marseilles, which was a small town in which the early life was spent. Later some activity in Paris. Responsible—give us time here—for the severing of a leg of a manservant. Involved in the treasury and in ritualistic activities having to do with the church. A member of a brotherhood of St. John’s, which was largely a social organization with religious connections. You wore scapulars up to your ears and you were a fine dandy.

([Janice:] “Am I still frightened after all this time?”)

You seem to be. You are doing well on your own and relating this material in terms of your own existence at this time, which is good. And you are progressing. Now let the other relationship go. Just let it go. In terms of yourself. And by let it go, I mean forget it entirely. This is a relationship mentioned already in class of which you spoke. Let it go. And in daydreams let it go.

You lose it. Five times a day at the very most.

(Janice asked if the feelings of noncaring that she had were the same as the time at Gert’s house.)

I would like to give you, for now, the same answer that I gave you before. Yes. And that was as far as I was willing to go at that time. And it is as far as both of us are willing to go at this time. And that tells you more than you knew before you asked the question.

Because you projected this upon her, and at one time it was a very safe place to project such feelings. There was a relationship in the past but not a deep one. You were simply afraid of expressing the feelings in any capacity, and projected them, therefore, upon a person who subconsciously you felt would not be able to reciprocate. You very nicely projected them upon a person who was bonded as you were by all kinds of taboos, specifically against any such behavior, where they would be least reciprocated in physical terms, when any such action would automatically involve all kinds of guilt and retaliation, the most difficult position of which you could conceive. You would have projected them upon a priest, but this frightened you even more because the male relationship held for you a feeling of terror. You did not, you see, project them upon a person who could immediately answer them in kind, with no strings attached; but a relationship could be easy, open, and immediate.

Will she get better? Will she grow her hair back in? Do you want every day known ahead of time and charted? Do you want to know that each hair in the cat’s body will return again? Shall I leave you...