“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(After break, to Bette.) Now for a cousin of Richelieu in the 18th-century France you put up some struggle pretending that you do not understand what you like to think of as intellectual discussions, and you make a great fight against what you like to think of as verbalization, and you pretend to yourself that you do not understand what I am saying when I am saying it. Now you are putting artificial limitations upon yourself that you partially understand and partially do not understand.

It is also highly charged to hide from yourself the fact that, as a cousin of Richelieu, you dwelt in a highly artificial intellectualized environment in which words were spoken about constantly without any understanding, and in which you personally held forth using words to cower both your friends and later the masses. And so now you pretend a vulgar, earthy, frank, common behavior that does not fit the inner self and yet fools you on an egotistical basis very well. However, it also serves to blunt your own abilities and to cause inner behavior that, again, is not suited to your capacities for it causes you to pretend not to understand that which you do well understand and therefore to block from your ego information that is otherwise quite plain.

Now that is one level, and on another level you think, “I am of the earth and strong and vital, and those who rely upon such thin, high, intellectual matter do not know what they are talking about. I can be brutal in my honesty but at least I am honest and I do not play with words.” And this is a personality that you have set up for yourself because behind it all in the French court you glorified in the use of words, in the high play of intellect in what now to you would seem to be surface, artificial qualities of stereotyped verbal behavior. You are quite able to follow any discussion in this room and it is about time that you realized it and used those intellectual abilities that are your own, and it is about time that you stopped telling yourself that you do not understand that which you well understand. I am onto you.

Because you were looking for it, and it is a life you needed to know about. Now. There were other, gentler ones. But here you were denying your intellectual abilities and projecting outward upon others, a dislike that was of your own making. You were a fine dancer, and you were very good with the ladies, and within the framework of existence in which you dwelt, you had a good heart. Now that should make you feel better.

(To Arnold.) Now a word over here. Feel concepts. Begin with your intellect and then leap over to feeling the concepts, and go along and merge with them. Begin if you want then, with what seems to be intellectual meditation, intellectual thought, and then let it carry you away, and it will carry you into a feeling of concept in which you understand a new concept. You should have some more evidence.

(To Vanessa.) You are sometimes engulfed by feelings of loneliness, even in your family relationship, and some of these are picked up from the other twin over here, some of those thoughts without recognizing their origin. You (Valerie) can to some extent get relief from your own feelings of isolation not by reacting to others, but by opening up to nature on an emotional level, not an intellectual one; and also by relating to this one’s child. There will be great rapport there for you, if you learn how to take advantage of it, for the child also takes support from your feelings for it. Now give us a moment.