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Now each of you is a part of All That Is, highly individual and unique, like no other, and that like no otherness will never be taken from you. You will not melt into some great golden bliss in which your characteristics will disappear. You will not be gobbled by a supergod. On the other hand you will continue to exist; you will continue to be responsible for the way in which you use energy; you will expand in ways now impossible for you to understand. You will learn to command energy of which you now do not know. You will realize that you are more than you realize that you are now, but you will not lose the state of which you are now aware, and regardless of the fact of reincarnation and regardless of probable selves the unique self that you now call yourself has eternal validity even though the memories that you cannot now consciously recall will be yours in their entirety. And physical life in its reincarnational self is not some chaos thrust upon you, some evil from which you must shortly hope to escape. It is a particular reality in which you have chosen to know your existence, in which you have chosen to develop yourself, and it is indeed a system, again, like no other system, a unique and dear and beloved portion of reality in which you have decided to flourish for awhile. And in denying it, again, you deny the reality of experience.
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([Ron:] “Within this system of meditation you talked about the creative vitality and the creative energy, that the idea of the end goal is the identity of the source of All That Is ...what is Buddha doing now?”)
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Within each of you there are truths that you do not know, realizations of inner reality. Now your ego, your exterior self, focuses outward into physical reality. It senses this inner knowledge, but it cannot understand it. It wants to see inner knowledge projected outward onto the physical reality then, to some extent, it will accept it and so through the eons that you know this inner knowledge, this inner vitality is projected outward onto history and onto historical events as you understand them. I am giving you some advance reference from my book.
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([Mark D.:] “My ego will not step aside and let me communicate with this vitality. What can I do?”)
Be kind to your ego. Do not treat it like a dumb relative, that you want to thrust aside. Tell it that it will also gain in its manipulation within physical reality and coax it a bit. Do not give it the boot.
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(After break.) A villain or a victim can also be a part of a religious drama, but I enjoy your interpretations of what I have said, and so before I finish I would like to hear more of these. I have to tell my friends how I am doing, you know. Sometimes they do not believe me.
([Mark:] “Do you get a report card?”)
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(After break, to Bette.) Now for a cousin of Richelieu in the 18th-century France you put up some struggle pretending that you do not understand what you like to think of as intellectual discussions, and you make a great fight against what you like to think of as verbalization, and you pretend to yourself that you do not understand what I am saying when I am saying it. Now you are putting artificial limitations upon yourself that you partially understand and partially do not understand.
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It is also highly charged to hide from yourself the fact that, as a cousin of Richelieu, you dwelt in a highly artificial intellectualized environment in which words were spoken about constantly without any understanding, and in which you personally held forth using words to cower both your friends and later the masses. And so now you pretend a vulgar, earthy, frank, common behavior that does not fit the inner self and yet fools you on an egotistical basis very well. However, it also serves to blunt your own abilities and to cause inner behavior that, again, is not suited to your capacities for it causes you to pretend not to understand that which you do well understand and therefore to block from your ego information that is otherwise quite plain.
Now you have a division neatly drawn for yourself; a framework in which you find yourself acting. A personality that you have set up for yourself, but the fact that you are coming to classes and using the intuitional abilities opens up a slight window in that artificial personality that you have adapted, for in your mind you think— and if you will forgive me, I will speak for you, but you may make a rebuttal. You think: “I am frank, I am earthy, I am one of the common stock; I do not understand this high verbalized chatter. Those that have been to school understand these things, but I am left out. But I do not care for the words are meaningless and in me there is a frankness and vitality that these others do not have.”
Now that is one level, and on another level you think, “I am of the earth and strong and vital, and those who rely upon such thin, high, intellectual matter do not know what they are talking about. I can be brutal in my honesty but at least I am honest and I do not play with words.” And this is a personality that you have set up for yourself because behind it all in the French court you glorified in the use of words, in the high play of intellect in what now to you would seem to be surface, artificial qualities of stereotyped verbal behavior. You are quite able to follow any discussion in this room and it is about time that you realized it and used those intellectual abilities that are your own, and it is about time that you stopped telling yourself that you do not understand that which you well understand. I am onto you.
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(A wasp flew around the ceiling.) Now I buzz as your wasp does. Ruburt will let the wasp out, you need not worry; nor is he about to attack you in a mindless rage. But remember the magic that is within yourselves. It is always there. You have only to recognize it, and you have only to be aware of the classes that you do all attend when you sleep.
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I was referring to several of you. You are one of them. I will not mention the others to whom I was referring since they already know, and I know that they know. You read that very well. You have traveled through the centuries. The particular relationships in the context do not matter for there are those who have had none in that particular respect. The main answer is that you were one of the ones to whom I was speaking.
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(After break, to Bette.) Marseilles ...Marseilles, which was a small town in which the early life was spent. Later some activity in Paris. Responsible—give us time here—for the severing of a leg of a manservant. Involved in the treasury and in ritualistic activities having to do with the church. A member of a brotherhood of St. John’s, which was largely a social organization with religious connections. You wore scapulars up to your ears and you were a fine dandy.
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(To Janice.) Now. Give us a moment. To the quiet one over there, next to the cousin of Richelieu, I do not speak to you often because I frighten you.
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You seem to be. You are doing well on your own and relating this material in terms of your own existence at this time, which is good. And you are progressing. Now let the other relationship go. Just let it go. In terms of yourself. And by let it go, I mean forget it entirely. This is a relationship mentioned already in class of which you spoke. Let it go. And in daydreams let it go.
(To Gert.) Over here, we are letting St. Lucia use her own wings and encouraging her not to rely on dogma and therefore we have given you none. And we have not intruded so that you would look up to me as the great white father that you do not need.
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([Gert:] “No, I mean that I’ve got to do it...”)
And can do it, and you are doing very well.
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No one forces you to go up onto the high board. And you do not go there unless you have some confidence in your own behavior.
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You were, indeed. That is one of your hangups, in Ruburt’s terms. You are doing very well with this visualization of the various portions of the self.
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That is your difficulty. Do not overplay your hand. The dream experience that our friend (Sue) had was legitimate, and you were involved in it though you do not remember. Now apply it specifically to a daily life situation. Do not overplay your hand. Do not cry wolf, wolf, unless you mean it. If you mean it, you do not need to yell wolf.
([Gert:] “How often do you need to go about giving suggestion that physical symptoms go away?”)
Do not give the suggestion in those terms. Imagine emotionally, instead, your feeling that the symptoms have already disappeared. Emotionally, imagine how fine you feel that now the symptoms are gone. Do not hammer at yourself. In a moment, see yourself freed from the symptoms and then forget the episode.
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The affair in the overall will work out well for you the situation as it now exists. It will work out in the framework that you now have. Do you follow me? The one detriment is an explosive nature on the part of the male involved under certain circumstances and certain conditions. A certain attitude on his part. This can be compensated for by an evenness of disposition on your part ...(tape was changed here, words missing) ...you need not manufacture such an attitude... work out should help give it to you. A feeling of inner confidence that he will sense.
There can be, in the realm of possibilities—there will be—within a three month period, I believe, someone to whom you will relate quite strongly. This seems to be a male—now we are speaking symbolically, in that he seems to be coming from the left, which means, I believe, he will not be coming from your family, or perhaps even from this area, but someone that you do not know now, who will bring you an onrush of feeling and an openness of emotion. In the long run, I do not see this situation developing into a strong one. But the situation will serve to release your emotions and prepare you for other encounters. It will be, therefore, on your part an emotional rebirth or reemergence after a long period that seems to you as great and very dark.
(To April.) Now over here until you have been here longer, I do not have too much to say to you for there is much that you must learn, and you might misinterpret what I might say—only that I am aware of your motives, and that there are reasons behind all behavior and all events, though they seem to you quite tragic. That there is meaning, therefore, in your child’s life and existence and even in your attitudes toward the child; and that in your terms, regardless of what happens, the child has a future, and that all endings are new beginnings.
(To group.) Soon I am going to have you work in class again with some experiments that you do on your own, and then all I shall do is sit and see how well you do. I bid you all a fond good evening (to Bette), even our cousin of Richelieu over there. Fine dandy or not. You also made an excellent pastry.
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Will she get better? Will she grow her hair back in? Do you want every day known ahead of time and charted? Do you want to know that each hair in the cat’s body will return again? Shall I leave you...
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What do you think you would feel if you were convinced that what I told you about your lives tomorrow and for the next year was true, and then I told you. What would you think if I gave you a legitimate statement about the activities of your lives until your deaths, in your terms. Would you thank me, or would you instead hate me for taking from you the glorious unpredictability of the life that you know?
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Not only do you have to go along with it, but it gives you your vigor.
And so I do, indeed, leave you with the question of the cat’s hair as a symbol of those aspects of physical reality that are unpredictable and also to make you consider the question that I just gave you.
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