“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

We are not speaking of an emotional striptease necessarily. We are speaking of an unburdening of the inner self as you now know it and a setting down of burdens so that you can get to work, for the burdens and the secrets represent boulders in your path, and you must either step around them or open up the skies of the soul so that they simply disintegrate in the sunshine. This is what we are speaking of.

I will smile at you so that you feel better and if anyone wants to get whipped after they tell their little secrets, someone can go out and buy a whip. It might make you feel better. Do you feel better now?

I gave you symbolic porridge one night, right? And it did a lot of good. Now, then, relax and be expressive, and you will feel much better. And do not have such a hang up over what I know you have in mind. Let it be. We are not giving away points for secrets.

Now my young friend, and all my dear young friends, first of all Joan Grant is a highly intelligent and very gifted woman. However, because of her own background and her reincamational background, she is tuned into tragic events and perceives these far more quickly than she perceives more pleasant events. She will, for example, perceive disasters and calamities. Now this is something she has taken upon herself and in her way, and I am not necessarily agreeing with this you understand, in her way she is trying to pay back errors that she feels that she made in the past. There is no need to pay for such errors, but as long as she believes that she must, then she will continue to do so. So these are not only her own agonies, but the agonies of others that she has taken upon herself. Psychologically you will use your inner abilities as you use your exterior abilities. For the same purposes and the same reasons and the same goals. Now she is doing some very excellent work, but she is causing herself agony that she need not bear.

(To Bette.) Now you do not have to fear your secrets or anyone else’s, and you do not have to fear that when you open yourselves up you are only going to find dark terrors, frightening thoughts and horrendous sins of the flesh. The flesh is far more innocent than any of you suppose. And the secret sins that you may think lie within you will not upset the gods one whit. The vitality of life is far greater than anything you can do to wound it. It is the most supreme egotism to imagine that any of your secrets can stand between you and any reality that is. You form your reality.

Now you may think that Joan Grant has formed a far more splendid reality than you have, and yet none of you would live in her shoes for an hour. You are not willing, some of you, to accept and experience your own feelings and emotions much less those of others. Now Miss Grant could, instead, you see, be full of the joy that exists in all personalities and in all pasts, and she could be as much help to the individuals involved but working from an entirely different level.

Now, this class worked for our young friend because she was ready to use her abilities and open to use her abilities and prepared. Some of you are ready and using your abilities, to some extent, but the ideas you have discussed in class this evening will be a great benefit if you follow them through.

You think because you come here that you are quite avant-garde and very with it and open-minded, indeed. There are people that you would not share your living room with who do not consider themselves avant-garde or open-minded, who do not understand concepts and are not equipped to intellectualize, but people who feel their own feelings with exaltation and joy and recognize their own identities because of this, and who are, therefore, open to the feelings of others and able to relate to them. When you use your inner abilities you are opening yourselves up to feelings, your own and those of others. And you cannot use symbols or concepts. You must learn to feel and recognize your feelings and be expansive. Only your fears are restrictive. You have all had secrets that you hid for many lives. You are far more nefarious in some of them than you are now.

When I said that our simple little exercise last week was a preliminary exercise, that is exactly what I meant but you are the ones who are placing the interpretation upon it that you are. So I have a simple question for you and I will expect an answer. It is a very simple question, there is an implication within it. You do not need to accept the implication, but if you do not, then why do you not? And for all your fine thoughts, why are each of you, in your secret ways, so afraid of the implications of the word love or showing it here? Why do you find it far safer to show love to an animal and pet it, than to a person? Now this is my question for you this evening, and I expect it faced and answered honestly. You are more frightened of that than anything else, not of your secrets. This is a fine blind. Some of you would rather stand up in this class and say, “I killed an animal in hatred” or “I knocked a man’s guts out” or “I shot my neighbor” almost, rather than express a simple statement of love or acceptance to another person in the class wholeheartedly and act, that was not an act, when you are not a star performing. The secrets do not bother you half as much as you imagine that they do.

Now you may all take your break, and I will welcome you at the end of my merry monologue.

(To Joel) We have a fine vocabulary. Now, we will change the question then and put it in different terms and, again, you need not accept the implication, but if you do not, then state that you do not. Why are you so afraid of love? Period.

...It takes spontaneity. It takes unlearning most of the things that you have learned and it takes, unfortunately right now, this kind of probing to release your spontaneity. And you will have every opportunity to display spontaneity in class. But these are words that you use easily without ever thinking what they mean, or more important, without feeling what you think they mean, and then separating that from your inner feelings about the words involved.

(To Joel) Now our friend behind me is running with great sprints away from (words lost) . You are searching for  (words lost) on the one hand, and running away on the other.

(To Sue.) And to this one over here. And your feelings toward love, and do not grimace at the term, it is not as bad as the word God, and you can stomach it. You realize when you avoid the verbal terms you are also avoiding coming to face with what the terms mean, not only to yourself, but what the terms mean to other people. Now we are two good friends in the dream state for you to start being apprehensive now. I want you to answer the question next.

You have all had time now to figure out some pretty good answers so let’s hear them.

(To Sally.) You project your own distrust upon other people and then react to it and so you close yourself off from those feelings of trust that others would express for you. Now you have a deep distrust of self that you have managed to shove beneath for many years, and it originated before your divorce. Now the distrust was projected outward, and so you found in physical reality those effects that seemed to justify your feelings and, therefore, you hid further and further within yourself, adapting a militant manner to hide the helplessness that you felt.

Now I have not said this to you before because you were not ready for it before, but now you are, and you can progress and free your own feelings of trust and love. And then you will meet these in exterior circumstances and recognize them in others for they have been offered to you, both kindness and love and trust, in the past, and you did not recognize them. And they will be offered again, but hopefully you will recognize them.

Now when you get a copy of this session read it and let the feelings go as rain or wind or lightening.

Feelings are life, feelings are consciousness. The gods do not dwell in some nirvana innocent of everything that you know. This is energy and you are using it and learning what to do with it. Now, peace.

Now if you inhibit your feelings you can, to a large extent, even inhibit your dream experience, and this is aside from monitoring your own dream memories. Therefore, much information that is available to you, you will automatically censor and not use to its true value.

Now, to some small extent this evening, you are learning to apply generalized emotions in a personal sense. The words are meaningless, and when you use them, they are shaky, indeed. It is like playing around with the letter ‘A’ without making words of it. Simply the discussion itself, and your own inner questions, will begin processes of discovery within yourselves. And I can say here (Sue); in particularly here (Florence); and here (Alison); and here (another student), for these forces have already begun.

(To Wally.) Now to our door opening and closing friend over here, a few comments. Some of the relationships mentioned earlier involving those who did not come. These relationships were top-heavy, in a strange way, in that you gave so much of yourself that some of the others felt overburdened and not able to respond. They felt guilty. Now there was a reason why you so overburdened them. I am referring to two particular people at this time, and you should look into yourself and see if you can find the reason.

Now, consciously, you meant well, of course. Unconsciously, however, there were reasons why you acted in such a manner, and you knew while you were doing this that the return was not of the kind that you would expect or wanted. You did not accept gracefully or openly that which was given, which was all these individuals had to give at that time, but subconsciously demanded that they give to the same scale that you gave and repaid love to the same scale as if there were, indeed, a point system and they fell short.

Now I bid you all a fond good evening.

Now my heartiest wishes to you all and those blessings that I have to give, I give you and those I do not have to give, you will have to find for yourself.