“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You all have your roles in class, as you have elsewhere, and you are afraid of disturbing the balance of the class. You have a good thing going and you do not want to lose it. You have various gradations of intellectuals; you have various gradations of those who are willing to express some emotions; you have some of those who are willing to disappear at the drop of a hat, and I am looking at no one in particular. I am the only one who expresses any emotions and I am supposed to be dead.

Well, we are starting a new one, and you had better get used to it.

Now you must admit that I have set you some example. I laugh more than you do. It is true I have not cried, but if things continue as they are, I may be about to, for I want your entire self here and expressive. Now you show somewhat more of yourselves in class than you do in your usual life situations. Some one percent more. But to come truly alive, and to come truly alive in this room, you must show far more. It ill behooves me to have to tell you that it takes someone as long dead as I have been to tell you how to become truly alive.

Now I have not told you to be decorous or quiet. I have spoken to you of direct experience, and by direct experience, I mean, also, emotional experience. You cannot divorce it from your own sense of reality and I use therefore the word “love” without the embarrassment that some of you, quite privately, ascribe to it. You can love a flower, you do not hate it because it has one brown petal, and yet, when you find another individual with a symbolic brown petal, you immediately latch upon that.

Now when I conduct a sensitivity session, you will know you have been to one. And if you do not all let down some barriers on your own then that will be what you are faced with.

(To Ned.) And no disappearing act will work, for wherever you can disappear to, I can follow and behind all your ostentatious openness there are closed doors. They are simply not as obvious as other people’s closed doors. There is one certain way to avoid detection by others and it is to appear so open that it will not occur to them that there is anything you are hiding, but you do not fool me.

And so, you must also go out, but this going out is a coming into. You cannot project psychic reality elsewhere. It is one thing to project a god outward into another universe and then try to find it. You realize by now that this is a futile attempt, but it is also futile to try to reach yourself by imagining that yourself is somewhere else in another universe. You are doing the same thing. The self is as immediate as All That Is is immediate, and your quickest entry point is at the point of your present feelings and there is no other way, and the door to your feelings are open. By accepting your feelings, at this moment or at any moment as they apply to yourselves and to others in the room, you can make your first steps. This will automatically increase your experience in the dream state.

Now, this point is within you at this moment and each moment and it is a point of feeling and awareness. Consciousness poised between exquisite points of imbalance. A knowledge that sings above nonexistence. A joy beyond all concept and its threshold is your own feeling. You must learn, therefore, to accept the feeling of any moment. To cut down the barriers, not between yourselves and others, so much as the barriers that you have set up against yourselves. To recognize within yourself the power that exists within you at any given moment of your time, and do not look away from it. To examine one instant of your feelings clearly, to some extent, is to realize what truth is and the truth is emotional.

They are highly connected in that they are all one. The energy is one.

It is your interpretation of a love that you do not know how to interpret. The closest you can come to the idea, and the feeling of true love is the sexual one and so you often interpret what you receive in sexual terms. In your terms of speaking this is fine and dandy.

It has to do with their own background and environment and it does not apply unless the woman is strongly identified in terms of one sex only.

Now I have said this before so it is nothing new, but when you get in the habit of getting out of touch with one feeling, then you inhibit all feelings to some extent. You cannot, therefore, be joyful.

I suggest now that when I am finished, for a preliminary starter, each of you tell a secret. Now you may have told this secret to your mate or to those closest to you or you may not have, but one that is not known to the world at large. And in a preliminary step in expressing modesty in this room, and in expressing your own experience and feeling, each of you, therefore, tell a secret and put your beliefs into action. Now some of you will doubtlessly choose secrets that are meaningless but even this is a beginning. I suggest, however, that you choose meaningful secrets for you will benefit. And when I run sensitivity sessions I do not fool around.

Now you can feel free at this time to pass, but you cannot always pass. What I want you to do is to admit here the things that are important to you that you have not told. That is important to you, not to me, and not to anyone else in the room, but it is highly important to you. You all have more than one secret and there will be plenty of time for the rest of them and then you can dance through the grasses and I will lead you with a merry flute, indeed; and then you will not need me to lead you with a merry flute, for you will hear your own music and be able to follow it. These secrets, you know, very important to you, very important to you, are very jovial in the nature of All That Is and hardly significant in the nature of reality. Their importance is only in the secrecy that you have maintained and their charge only in the secrecy that you have maintained. It is time, you see.

Now my sensitivity session with you has barely begun but we will continue at another time and I will not be satisfied with these tidbits that you have thrown out for me. You are so negatively oriented that you automatically think your secrets must be negative ones, you see, and you think of them in negative terms where they are not negative. This has to do with the charge that you have built up about them. They are not negative. You hide them because you think they are. When you feel free to realize they are creative you will feel free to release them. And until you feel free you may keep your silence.