“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now you are all out of touch with your own emotions. It is not so much that you put up barriers between yourself and others, but that you put up barriers between yourself and yourself. And each of you in class have put up paper people that sit in front of you, and you hope that the others relate to these paper people.

Now our friend, Ruburt, is not about to go for all this sexual hanky-panky that is described in this precious book, but the man who wrote the book picked up his information from the inner self and then he made a story about it. And when you come to class from now on I will expect to find you all here, not just the physical self, not just the intellectual self, not just the portions of yourself that you term, psychically inclined, but the emotional self. And I will expect to see it showing.

Now you must admit that I have set you some example. I laugh more than you do. It is true I have not cried, but if things continue as they are, I may be about to, for I want your entire self here and expressive. Now you show somewhat more of yourselves in class than you do in your usual life situations. Some one percent more. But to come truly alive, and to come truly alive in this room, you must show far more. It ill behooves me to have to tell you that it takes someone as long dead as I have been to tell you how to become truly alive.

Now you have said something and you can let out your joy in this room in class and also, your great fears. Blessed are they who realize what they say, for they shall say more.

Now many of you still do not realize what I say. You listen to the words and that is all, but the power behind the words, and the power behind the voice, is emotional power and emotional energy and it represents, again, energy that is within each of you and there is no need to be afraid of it. I am not worried about being dignified and adult. Why should you be? And why should you try to be psychically educated while closing yourself off emotionally from the others who come to class for you all have put up barriers between yourselves. You must learn to recognize and use and pool your emotional energy. You do not lose, but gain.

Now I have not told you to be decorous or quiet. I have spoken to you of direct experience, and by direct experience, I mean, also, emotional experience. You cannot divorce it from your own sense of reality and I use therefore the word “love” without the embarrassment that some of you, quite privately, ascribe to it. You can love a flower, you do not hate it because it has one brown petal, and yet, when you find another individual with a symbolic brown petal, you immediately latch upon that.

(To Mark D.) Now simply through the energy that you sense in this room you should be able to sense your own emotional reality and strength and tap it and use it. You will not run dry.

Now when I conduct a sensitivity session, you will know you have been to one. And if you do not all let down some barriers on your own then that will be what you are faced with.

(To a student) Now this applies to you strongly,  you have been frightened of it. To some extent this applies to Ruburt also, for he realizes its strength. But the time has come for you all to learn to recognize, feel, and direct your own emotional reality. When you deal with them in terms of formula you have already deprived them, in your own mind, of part of their reality.

Now we have spoken in terms that you could understand, the nature of your world and reality as you know it, but you have not taken the stuff of reality into your hearts and understood it and this is what you must now begin to learn to do. In other words, you must accept the emotional self, not superficially, not idealistically, but as it now exists. The reality of what you are now and then you can begin to work with what you are and what you have.

Now our friend, Ruburt, is a loner and he does go out in areas that frighten him. He goes out in these areas for himself, but also for others because this is a portion of what he is meant to do.

And so, you must also go out, but this going out is a coming into. You cannot project psychic reality elsewhere. It is one thing to project a god outward into another universe and then try to find it. You realize by now that this is a futile attempt, but it is also futile to try to reach yourself by imagining that yourself is somewhere else in another universe. You are doing the same thing. The self is as immediate as All That Is is immediate, and your quickest entry point is at the point of your present feelings and there is no other way, and the door to your feelings are open. By accepting your feelings, at this moment or at any moment as they apply to yourselves and to others in the room, you can make your first steps. This will automatically increase your experience in the dream state.

Now there is a point within each of you, at this moment, in this room at this time, that is a connection with all of reality that you can ever know and this point is a point of feeling. Not of words, not of concepts, not of trial and error, but the point of existence within you that is now present and of which you are all aware. The point from which you run from morning until evening. The point of reality within you that you try to escape because you are afraid of reality and unwilling to accept the responsibilities of it and so you form pseudorealities.

Now, this point is within you at this moment and each moment and it is a point of feeling and awareness. Consciousness poised between exquisite points of imbalance. A knowledge that sings above nonexistence. A joy beyond all concept and its threshold is your own feeling. You must learn, therefore, to accept the feeling of any moment. To cut down the barriers, not between yourselves and others, so much as the barriers that you have set up against yourselves. To recognize within yourself the power that exists within you at any given moment of your time, and do not look away from it. To examine one instant of your feelings clearly, to some extent, is to realize what truth is and the truth is emotional.

(To Joel) Now what questions do you have stacked up in fine parcels for me?

Now I will let you take your sensitive break and barriers do not work with me.

It is a method. It is not the best method. In your culture, at this present time, it passes for the best method. Now we will have classes that far surpass it.

Now I have said this before so it is nothing new, but when you get in the habit of getting out of touch with one feeling, then you inhibit all feelings to some extent. You cannot, therefore, be joyful.

I suggest now that when I am finished, for a preliminary starter, each of you tell a secret. Now you may have told this secret to your mate or to those closest to you or you may not have, but one that is not known to the world at large. And in a preliminary step in expressing modesty in this room, and in expressing your own experience and feeling, each of you, therefore, tell a secret and put your beliefs into action. Now some of you will doubtlessly choose secrets that are meaningless but even this is a beginning. I suggest, however, that you choose meaningful secrets for you will benefit. And when I run sensitivity sessions I do not fool around.

Now you can feel free at this time to pass, but you cannot always pass. What I want you to do is to admit here the things that are important to you that you have not told. That is important to you, not to me, and not to anyone else in the room, but it is highly important to you. You all have more than one secret and there will be plenty of time for the rest of them and then you can dance through the grasses and I will lead you with a merry flute, indeed; and then you will not need me to lead you with a merry flute, for you will hear your own music and be able to follow it. These secrets, you know, very important to you, very important to you, are very jovial in the nature of All That Is and hardly significant in the nature of reality. Their importance is only in the secrecy that you have maintained and their charge only in the secrecy that you have maintained. It is time, you see.

Put your fingers together, release them, put them together again, release them  put them together again, release them. From now on you will be able to release your fingers whenever you want to and that takes care of that.

Release them, do it again, release them. Now do it again without my telling you to do it. Do it again, quicker. Allright.

Now there are endless possibilities of development in this life and you utilize only few of them. In other existences other possibilities are utilized. Now you have made inroads tonight. Some of you more than others, but it is a beginning.

It has to do simply with the fact that you related as a male rather than as a female for some time because of past-life experiences. Now this is not necessarily the case, but it is the case in your particular position.

Now my sensitivity session with you has barely begun but we will continue at another time and I will not be satisfied with these tidbits that you have thrown out for me. You are so negatively oriented that you automatically think your secrets must be negative ones, you see, and you think of them in negative terms where they are not negative. This has to do with the charge that you have built up about them. They are not negative. You hide them because you think they are. When you feel free to realize they are creative you will feel free to release them. And until you feel free you may keep your silence.