“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now you are all out of touch with your own emotions. It is not so much that you put up barriers between yourself and others, but that you put up barriers between yourself and yourself. And each of you in class have put up paper people that sit in front of you, and you hope that the others relate to these paper people.

You all have your roles in class, as you have elsewhere, and you are afraid of disturbing the balance of the class. You have a good thing going and you do not want to lose it. You have various gradations of intellectuals; you have various gradations of those who are willing to express some emotions; you have some of those who are willing to disappear at the drop of a hat, and I am looking at no one in particular. I am the only one who expresses any emotions and I am supposed to be dead.

Now our friend, Ruburt, is not about to go for all this sexual hanky-panky that is described in this precious book, but the man who wrote the book picked up his information from the inner self and then he made a story about it. And when you come to class from now on I will expect to find you all here, not just the physical self, not just the intellectual self, not just the portions of yourself that you term, psychically inclined, but the emotional self. And I will expect to see it showing.

Now many of you still do not realize what I say. You listen to the words and that is all, but the power behind the words, and the power behind the voice, is emotional power and emotional energy and it represents, again, energy that is within each of you and there is no need to be afraid of it. I am not worried about being dignified and adult. Why should you be? And why should you try to be psychically educated while closing yourself off emotionally from the others who come to class for you all have put up barriers between yourselves. You must learn to recognize and use and pool your emotional energy. You do not lose, but gain.

Now when I conduct a sensitivity session, you will know you have been to one. And if you do not all let down some barriers on your own then that will be what you are faced with.

(To Ned.) And no disappearing act will work, for wherever you can disappear to, I can follow and behind all your ostentatious openness there are closed doors. They are simply not as obvious as other people’s closed doors. There is one certain way to avoid detection by others and it is to appear so open that it will not occur to them that there is anything you are hiding, but you do not fool me.

You may all take your break.

You will shortly learn, here at least, to be honest with your own self, to free your own emotional energy and then learn to direct it. You have all been afraid of feeling it, you have therefore been unable to direct it.

(To a student) Now this applies to you strongly,  you have been frightened of it. To some extent this applies to Ruburt also, for he realizes its strength. But the time has come for you all to learn to recognize, feel, and direct your own emotional reality. When you deal with them in terms of formula you have already deprived them, in your own mind, of part of their reality.

And so, you must also go out, but this going out is a coming into. You cannot project psychic reality elsewhere. It is one thing to project a god outward into another universe and then try to find it. You realize by now that this is a futile attempt, but it is also futile to try to reach yourself by imagining that yourself is somewhere else in another universe. You are doing the same thing. The self is as immediate as All That Is is immediate, and your quickest entry point is at the point of your present feelings and there is no other way, and the door to your feelings are open. By accepting your feelings, at this moment or at any moment as they apply to yourselves and to others in the room, you can make your first steps. This will automatically increase your experience in the dream state.

Now there is a point within each of you, at this moment, in this room at this time, that is a connection with all of reality that you can ever know and this point is a point of feeling. Not of words, not of concepts, not of trial and error, but the point of existence within you that is now present and of which you are all aware. The point from which you run from morning until evening. The point of reality within you that you try to escape because you are afraid of reality and unwilling to accept the responsibilities of it and so you form pseudorealities.

Now, this point is within you at this moment and each moment and it is a point of feeling and awareness. Consciousness poised between exquisite points of imbalance. A knowledge that sings above nonexistence. A joy beyond all concept and its threshold is your own feeling. You must learn, therefore, to accept the feeling of any moment. To cut down the barriers, not between yourselves and others, so much as the barriers that you have set up against yourselves. To recognize within yourself the power that exists within you at any given moment of your time, and do not look away from it. To examine one instant of your feelings clearly, to some extent, is to realize what truth is and the truth is emotional.

([Gert:] “How does the sex drive relate to psychic development? Is there any relationship at all?”)

They are highly connected in that they are all one. The energy is one.

(Beginning of sentence lost) ... as if only anger were involved or negative feelings. But all of you, when you think of feelings in that context, you think of negative feelings that are being repressed. You do not realize that you are often out of touch with your own feelings of joy and spontaneity.

Now I have said this before so it is nothing new, but when you get in the habit of getting out of touch with one feeling, then you inhibit all feelings to some extent. You cannot, therefore, be joyful.

Now you can feel free at this time to pass, but you cannot always pass. What I want you to do is to admit here the things that are important to you that you have not told. That is important to you, not to me, and not to anyone else in the room, but it is highly important to you. You all have more than one secret and there will be plenty of time for the rest of them and then you can dance through the grasses and I will lead you with a merry flute, indeed; and then you will not need me to lead you with a merry flute, for you will hear your own music and be able to follow it. These secrets, you know, very important to you, very important to you, are very jovial in the nature of All That Is and hardly significant in the nature of reality. Their importance is only in the secrecy that you have maintained and their charge only in the secrecy that you have maintained. It is time, you see.

You knew him in a past life in Germany, and you have all been males and females so it is quite easily for you to relate in either direction. Your cultural background specifies, however, certain directions that you follow.

I bid you all a hearty and an emotional and joyful and a loud and a spontaneous good evening.