“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You all have your roles in class, as you have elsewhere, and you are afraid of disturbing the balance of the class. You have a good thing going and you do not want to lose it. You have various gradations of intellectuals; you have various gradations of those who are willing to express some emotions; you have some of those who are willing to disappear at the drop of a hat, and I am looking at no one in particular. I am the only one who expresses any emotions and I am supposed to be dead.

Now you must admit that I have set you some example. I laugh more than you do. It is true I have not cried, but if things continue as they are, I may be about to, for I want your entire self here and expressive. Now you show somewhat more of yourselves in class than you do in your usual life situations. Some one percent more. But to come truly alive, and to come truly alive in this room, you must show far more. It ill behooves me to have to tell you that it takes someone as long dead as I have been to tell you how to become truly alive.

You do not need to be sad though, anymore than your big toe has to be a little toe before it understands what it is to be a big toe. Your big toe is smarter than you are. Listen to it.

Everyone is that sensitive. You do not realize that they realize it.

Now many of you still do not realize what I say. You listen to the words and that is all, but the power behind the words, and the power behind the voice, is emotional power and emotional energy and it represents, again, energy that is within each of you and there is no need to be afraid of it. I am not worried about being dignified and adult. Why should you be? And why should you try to be psychically educated while closing yourself off emotionally from the others who come to class for you all have put up barriers between yourselves. You must learn to recognize and use and pool your emotional energy. You do not lose, but gain.

Now I have not told you to be decorous or quiet. I have spoken to you of direct experience, and by direct experience, I mean, also, emotional experience. You cannot divorce it from your own sense of reality and I use therefore the word “love” without the embarrassment that some of you, quite privately, ascribe to it. You can love a flower, you do not hate it because it has one brown petal, and yet, when you find another individual with a symbolic brown petal, you immediately latch upon that.

Now when I conduct a sensitivity session, you will know you have been to one. And if you do not all let down some barriers on your own then that will be what you are faced with.

(To Ned.) And no disappearing act will work, for wherever you can disappear to, I can follow and behind all your ostentatious openness there are closed doors. They are simply not as obvious as other people’s closed doors. There is one certain way to avoid detection by others and it is to appear so open that it will not occur to them that there is anything you are hiding, but you do not fool me.

Now we have spoken in terms that you could understand, the nature of your world and reality as you know it, but you have not taken the stuff of reality into your hearts and understood it and this is what you must now begin to learn to do. In other words, you must accept the emotional self, not superficially, not idealistically, but as it now exists. The reality of what you are now and then you can begin to work with what you are and what you have.

Now our friend, Ruburt, is a loner and he does go out in areas that frighten him. He goes out in these areas for himself, but also for others because this is a portion of what he is meant to do.

And so, you must also go out, but this going out is a coming into. You cannot project psychic reality elsewhere. It is one thing to project a god outward into another universe and then try to find it. You realize by now that this is a futile attempt, but it is also futile to try to reach yourself by imagining that yourself is somewhere else in another universe. You are doing the same thing. The self is as immediate as All That Is is immediate, and your quickest entry point is at the point of your present feelings and there is no other way, and the door to your feelings are open. By accepting your feelings, at this moment or at any moment as they apply to yourselves and to others in the room, you can make your first steps. This will automatically increase your experience in the dream state.

([Arnold:] “You mean my background has lead me to do this?”)

Now, this point is within you at this moment and each moment and it is a point of feeling and awareness. Consciousness poised between exquisite points of imbalance. A knowledge that sings above nonexistence. A joy beyond all concept and its threshold is your own feeling. You must learn, therefore, to accept the feeling of any moment. To cut down the barriers, not between yourselves and others, so much as the barriers that you have set up against yourselves. To recognize within yourself the power that exists within you at any given moment of your time, and do not look away from it. To examine one instant of your feelings clearly, to some extent, is to realize what truth is and the truth is emotional.

It is your interpretation of a love that you do not know how to interpret. The closest you can come to the idea, and the feeling of true love is the sexual one and so you often interpret what you receive in sexual terms. In your terms of speaking this is fine and dandy.

(To Joel) Now what questions do you have stacked up in fine parcels for me?

It does not. It has to do simply with your own society and cultural ideas that are inherent within it. In your terms, the woman has done her thing and therefore, what else can she do to better herself? Nothing? And so after birth, for some time, there can be feelings of depression.

([Gert:] “Why do some women get it and some don’t?”)

It has to do with their own background and environment and it does not apply unless the woman is strongly identified in terms of one sex only.

Now I will let you take your sensitive break and barriers do not work with me.

([Joel:] “Barriers don’t work with us do they? We just think they do?”)

(Beginning of sentence lost) ... as if only anger were involved or negative feelings. But all of you, when you think of feelings in that context, you think of negative feelings that are being repressed. You do not realize that you are often out of touch with your own feelings of joy and spontaneity.

I suggest now that when I am finished, for a preliminary starter, each of you tell a secret. Now you may have told this secret to your mate or to those closest to you or you may not have, but one that is not known to the world at large. And in a preliminary step in expressing modesty in this room, and in expressing your own experience and feeling, each of you, therefore, tell a secret and put your beliefs into action. Now some of you will doubtlessly choose secrets that are meaningless but even this is a beginning. I suggest, however, that you choose meaningful secrets for you will benefit. And when I run sensitivity sessions I do not fool around.

Now you can feel free at this time to pass, but you cannot always pass. What I want you to do is to admit here the things that are important to you that you have not told. That is important to you, not to me, and not to anyone else in the room, but it is highly important to you. You all have more than one secret and there will be plenty of time for the rest of them and then you can dance through the grasses and I will lead you with a merry flute, indeed; and then you will not need me to lead you with a merry flute, for you will hear your own music and be able to follow it. These secrets, you know, very important to you, very important to you, are very jovial in the nature of All That Is and hardly significant in the nature of reality. Their importance is only in the secrecy that you have maintained and their charge only in the secrecy that you have maintained. It is time, you see.

Release them, do it again, release them. Now do it again without my telling you to do it. Do it again, quicker. Allright.

([Gert:] “Do my tendencies have to do with a past French existence?”)

It has to do simply with the fact that you related as a male rather than as a female for some time because of past-life experiences. Now this is not necessarily the case, but it is the case in your particular position.

You are learning to readjust and doing very well at it. It will also help you, however, in a very strange manner, to relate to your children for you will be able to see the problems.

Now my sensitivity session with you has barely begun but we will continue at another time and I will not be satisfied with these tidbits that you have thrown out for me. You are so negatively oriented that you automatically think your secrets must be negative ones, you see, and you think of them in negative terms where they are not negative. This has to do with the charge that you have built up about them. They are not negative. You hide them because you think they are. When you feel free to realize they are creative you will feel free to release them. And until you feel free you may keep your silence.