“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You were afraid, however, that those who tried to leave would be forced to return, that they would seek you out and bring you back and that your fellows would greatly resent any knowledge you had achieved. Also, that to gain knowledge, you had to leave the place. To leave meant to go outward into a journey of discovery. As long as you stayed within the framework you were protected. As long as you appeared happy and went your way you were safe. The operation represented something else, however.

I will have to think up something for you some night. I will have you on as a flower and I will show my own film to my friends and say, look, they exist, would you ever believe it? I have never seen such benign tomfoolery in all my life before.

You ended up giving two quarters. Now two quarters, in terms of money, is a small amount, two bits, and yet two quarters also symbolize one half and this is the main meaning of your dream for you are half convinced and half not convinced and you gave in case they were right. It is a good point of housewifery prudence and spiritual prudence as well, but you would not have given had not this authority figure of the Pope done so ahead of you which means that presently you are looking for direction and hoping to find it and also that you are not going to give to any red-hooded beggars who knock at your side door. It also shows that you are deeply considering matters and that you are more open.

Now in the same kind of a dream, say two years ago, you would not have opened the side door. The connection with your aunt simply has to do with present-life connections and the terms of the house to you. Now the house, to you, represents in one way, the seat of personality also, the inviolate place and you do not open the door to strangers or give them access into the secret self unless you feel that there is a good reason.

([Joel:] “Sometimes I think I would renegotiate the contract.”)

I will give you one of my best when I get rid of Ruburt’s cigarette. There, now I have smiled happier smiles but someone has told jokes. I knew that would do it, it made you smile in any case.

I will bid you all a fond good evening and I would like it if some of you would think of some of the matters that we have discussed here this evening. When you think up questions personal involvement must be connected or they will have no real meaning to you. Think in terms of your own personal reality, your own personal life and how these theories apply to who you think you are now.