“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You were afraid, however, that those who tried to leave would be forced to return, that they would seek you out and bring you back and that your fellows would greatly resent any knowledge you had achieved. Also, that to gain knowledge, you had to leave the place. To leave meant to go outward into a journey of discovery. As long as you stayed within the framework you were protected. As long as you appeared happy and went your way you were safe. The operation represented something else, however.

You ended up giving two quarters. Now two quarters, in terms of money, is a small amount, two bits, and yet two quarters also symbolize one half and this is the main meaning of your dream for you are half convinced and half not convinced and you gave in case they were right. It is a good point of housewifery prudence and spiritual prudence as well, but you would not have given had not this authority figure of the Pope done so ahead of you which means that presently you are looking for direction and hoping to find it and also that you are not going to give to any red-hooded beggars who knock at your side door. It also shows that you are deeply considering matters and that you are more open.

It seems to have a dim connection for you having to do with a young woman who received on that date, a letter of an emotional import. Now I am not sure if the woman’s name was Lillian, but a Lillian was somehow connected with the event. The episode was not a traumatic one. It was simply an emotional one, a trivial incident, however, that you picked up telepathically. It sprang to your mind because of the connection of a desk with a letter.

I want you to get on with your own discussion, however, the hungry man knows that he is hungry and in India it is not the hungry man who is filled up either with food or with spiritual ideas. It is one thing to be poor and hungry and disease-ridden without knowledge and with a sense of hopelessness and despair, and it is another to decide, of your own will, to deprive your body for a purpose of your own. But Ruburt did not want to add his ideas to this discussion, he wanted to find out what you thought, and so I should, by rights, not add mine.

Now this bargain does not only have to do with your psychic work but to your entire life situation and in a way you have the same goals but you have a division of labor that you have subconsciously decided upon. You want to be cautious, yet you want to find out what there is about the nature of reality and in this implied bargain you are the one who will make the inroads or seem to go ahead to have the freedom and spontaneity to do so. As our past sessions show in class, you also have a strong sense of responsibility. Now at this time, it seems too much to bear both at the same, and so our friend here is being the critical one for you and then you can free yourself for this trance work knowing that any questions of a critical nature that you might have will be asked by her and, therefore, you will feel free to go ahead.

I will bid you all a fond good evening and I would like it if some of you would think of some of the matters that we have discussed here this evening. When you think up questions personal involvement must be connected or they will have no real meaning to you. Think in terms of your own personal reality, your own personal life and how these theories apply to who you think you are now.