“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now, in terms of growth and development and speaking now simply to get the idea across, theoretically, you are working toward a time when the you that you now know will be aware of the entire personality and accept it as your identity. The whole personality is not like some superself in which you are lost, in which the identity that you know is gone. You must simply accept the fact for now until your own experience begins to prove it more and more. That the inner identity, that you, is far more than you presently realize, and the best way to work toward such realization is to accept the self that your are now, as you are. To feel the movement of the spontaneous self.

Then we will let  you take my place. Now, to some extent, what you say is true and yet much of this is not of my doing. The voice mechanism, unfortunately, is something that we must work with and to get my own personality across through the female image and vocal chords, certain adjustments must be made. Beyond this, however, as I believe I mentioned in a few classes, it is not out of the inner sense of my invisible heart but out of the depths of your own psychology that you make me into the image of a wise old man and project upon me authority images that lurk in your own mind. I have always tried to keep you from making this error and always sought to release from within yourselves your own abilities. And told you that knowledge must be directly experienced. You will not learn nearly as much from me as you will through traveling through your own inner self and searching into the reality of yourself for other realities that are also there of which your are unaware. Now my voice is loud but the voice of the inner self is very still and you must be quiet to hear it and so from the loudness of my voice let your self run inward into that silence that is very active.

([Joel:] “You knew I had been working on that, didn’t you?”)

(To Natalie.) For over here in our kind and very excellent secretary. There is a bleed-through of material from an Irish existence as a young boy of fourteen. I see you as a Brian Donlevy, in a town 30 or 35 miles from Dublin in 1831 at the time of a hidden rebellion, as a runner. As a runner between the Catholic Irish and Englishmen and in a time of terror. Two brothers who were priests and yet it seems from what I am getting, that you did what only can be called spy work for them. That matters of money and inheritance entered in and that they were on the side of the English for those reasons. Therefore, you were in a highly ambiguous position. 1831 to 1862. Rather aggressive, hotheaded. I see you playing in the church, mimicking the priest and playing with the vestments. You sired a son at the age of fourteen. Your brothers knew this, the priests, and they used this knowledge to incite you to act as a spy for them.

You know one of these brothers in this existence, as a woman. I will work on this, it is either your mother or an aunt. You are used to taking orders from this person and there is good reason for it. She does not have anything over you now. The child was sired in the past. And do not let her put one over on you. She was far older than you in that life, as the older brother, and used to having his way.