“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now, I have a few more suggestions that I am sure you will all be very excited about and I do, indeed, have some issues planned for you and so tonight I have another question.

Now I am sure you recall the evening that we asked for you to tell a secret. Now, tonight I am not going to ask you for a secret but I am going to ask you to tell why you did not tell the secrets that you glossed over. Why, instead, you chose the particular secrets that you did. Now each of you went over very thoroughly in your mind your charged list of secrets. Some of you found to your amazement, that you did not seem to have any such. Others found such a list that you made up priorities.

Now, I want to know two things; what I want you to tell, two things; why you chose to divulge the particular secret that you did and why you did not choose to divulge another. Why you used one secret and cover up for another. I want you to know the answers to the questions. And those of you who were not present at that session may then divulge their initial secrets.

Now, regardless of those who come and go within this class we shall achieve a state of trust and this is one of the ways that we shall achieve it. And we shall begin with our friend, brother Theodore.

Now I suggest that we continue where we began and I am highly amused with all the conversation it spontaneously erupted. You have, indeed, appointments with the universe but your first appointment is with yourself and when you have the courage to meet that appointment then begin thinking of the universe for then you will realize that you and the universe are, to a large extent, one but not while you hedge. You know what it will be because I know what you have not told.

As you know and I know, and with no accusation involved in one way or another, the answer is facile. It is too easy. Now ask yourself some further questions about the answer that you have given and whether or not you truly accept it, using the knowledge from the whole self that is now becoming available to you.

Now you are being more honest. I would give you a medal, but I do not have one available. To establish the overall position of trust between yourselves and the group, if you want to establish it, then the answer was important. And to everyone else in the room so will your own answers be important.

Now when you speak these feelings you speak for everyone in the room, Ruburt included. There will always be such points, but your existences that you are aware of, feelings; and that itself is vitality and strength and within the feelings themselves there is creativity and the feelings spur you on. Now you can feel them free, recognize them, allow them their legitimate nature at this point in your reality and then use them. Let them be our guideposts. Do not deny them, but from this will come a   (word lost) that you cannot now understand or comprehend.

You only imagine that you stand rigid. You are afraid of fear. You are openly vulnerable, not only to fear, but to the creativity that courses through your being. You move quickly, emotionally, and there is nothing wrong with this. Let yourself go and do not be afraid of your feelings. Do not try to make a rock. Do not try to make yourself into a cold star from which you can observe the rest of humanity and be safe from it. That would not help. Do not believe it, feel it. Simply feel it, and let the beliefs go. The beliefs will come when you allow yourself to recognize all your feelings. When you set up blocks against the negative ones, you also set up blocks against the creative spontaneous ones. Now, let the arm go. That is natural enough for now. You will find it, it is within you. Do not try too hard. Take it for granted that you already know it. For you do, and it will find you.

You are dealing here, and in this particular case, with probabilities. You had two main levels of development that you could have followed in this existence. They were diverse but in both, in the main, you would have been working toward the same objectives. And in one you would have devoted your existence to studying the inner nature of reality. You would have been contemplative. Now to the extreme you would have joined an order, for awhile, of a religious nature and later you would have left it. You would have had neither wife nor child. Your questioning nature would have followed the aesthetic life with devotion and without deviation.

Now those of you who have families, within that framework if you watch and listen, and you do, there are moments of unbearable and unspeakable agony as you recognize the aloneness of the human spirit in what seems to be an unfeeling universe. And there is also the unspeakable exaltation that you feel and cannot explain, as you watch your children grow and as you feel, even within yourself, the recognition, the spiritual recognition, that comes when flesh meets flesh and this is what you chose to encounter. The voice and the speaker gave you  your alternative. And the children will be taken away as all human children are. In your terms, those who are grown are always taken away, and the voice spoke in those terms, and you made your choice.

Now the one goal not only of my existence, and I feel this personally, but of all existence is creativity. I do not speak to you, in your terms, because you find it so difficult to understand or experience the reality of creativity and so all personalities, in whatever their sphere of activity, are involved in the nature of creativity. And this involves the creation of further value fulfillment, of consciousness that is not a burden, as sometimes your consciousness seems to be to you, but joy upon which other universes can also rest. The consciousness and creativity of one, while seeming alone, is not alone but is a threshold upon which others may rest, and a framework from which others may grow.

I have a book of secrets. In each life I had secrets. Now I have no secrets, but I will see to it that some of my favorite secrets are written down so that you may read them. Now your secrets leave me completely untouched since I was an illegitimate mother several times, and as a father I sired many that I did not know. Now that was in many of my youths. I was quite a pious old man and woman in many of those lives and completely forgot or justified the errors in course of my youth. And this is why your secret did not bother me either, for I know that each of you have been both male and female and that you simply adapt those characteristics that suit you most at the time.

Now you all want to do fine and mighty spiritual things and many of you, as much as possible, want to do these things without facing the self that you know. And in order to have a good framework you must begin with the self that you know, and you must not ignore feelings or emotions, and you must not decide which feelings or emotions you will accept and which you will reject. You will understand them all as legitimate experience and go on from there. You will not hide in concepts, and I will not allow you, any of you, to hide in concepts.

Now what makes you ask the question or doubt that any reality could be without it, for it is the basis for any reality that any consciousness knows. If it would not be love, then I would not be here, and if it were not for love, you would not have the planet that you know. Your negative emotions appear to you quite obviously as ill health and wars and desolation, and when something is wrong you recognize them. But the innate love within you, that you are often too embarrassed to express, forms the planet that you know, the physical bodies that you inhabit, the seasons and the reality in which you presently have your existence. And love also forms a framework in which I have my existence. Hopefully, those in my sphere of existence realize that all ends are creative.

That even when you are using energy in what seems to you to be a destructive manner you are being creative and cannot avoid it. Now does that answer your question?

I do, indeed, and all consciousness of whatever extent feels love though it may not know the verbal designation for that is the basis of all existence. And there is no existence when you try to separate feeling from reality or consciousness from its experiences. And now it is time for your secret.

(To Ron.) Now to our new student, your reaction, you see, this evening and your lack of reaction also is connected with the ideas that you have received as to the nature of meditation and spiritual knowledge.

Everyone here knows, each of you know, what I am up to by now, and you know when I am ready to begin to tell you.

Now when, in Ruburt’s terms, you click as a group within this class, you will know that you have done so, and your experiments and experiences will really take bloom.

Now there are relationships still to be worked out among you, and I will point them out. For before you have a firm foundation of trust these matters must be both faced and settled. They may appear to you, or they may affect some of you to varying degrees, but, in any case, you must work them out. Now one was mentioned by you earlier this evening (Gert). Do you follow me? The other involves this one over here (Bette) and brother Joel. These are the main areas at this point.

I am talking first of all of Bette and Joel, then I am speaking of you and Sue and then I am speaking of you and Joel. Now do we have that settled? Now I am not going in depth, I am merely bringing to the surface feelings of which I know, of which you may or may not be aware, but in which you are involved. Is that clear?

Now I bid you all a fond good evening so that you can relax.