“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now when you speak these feelings you speak for everyone in the room, Ruburt included. There will always be such points, but your existences that you are aware of, feelings; and that itself is vitality and strength and within the feelings themselves there is creativity and the feelings spur you on. Now you can feel them free, recognize them, allow them their legitimate nature at this point in your reality and then use them. Let them be our guideposts. Do not deny them, but from this will come a   (word lost) that you cannot now understand or comprehend.

All of life as you know it is vulnerable. Existence as you know it is vulnerable, but if you are vulnerable to sorrow and doubt you are also vulnerable to exaltation and joy, so do not attempt to close off from your feelings or be ashamed of them or deny them. Creativity is always vulnerable and within the vulnerability of your present life is the key to your own infinite existence. The leaves are vulnerable to storms, to temperature, and they bend gently. They give and do not attempt to stand rigidly against their nature.

You only imagine that you stand rigid. You are afraid of fear. You are openly vulnerable, not only to fear, but to the creativity that courses through your being. You move quickly, emotionally, and there is nothing wrong with this. Let yourself go and do not be afraid of your feelings. Do not try to make a rock. Do not try to make yourself into a cold star from which you can observe the rest of humanity and be safe from it. That would not help. Do not believe it, feel it. Simply feel it, and let the beliefs go. The beliefs will come when you allow yourself to recognize all your feelings. When you set up blocks against the negative ones, you also set up blocks against the creative spontaneous ones. Now, let the arm go. That is natural enough for now. You will find it, it is within you. Do not try too hard. Take it for granted that you already know it. For you do, and it will find you.

You are dealing here, and in this particular case, with probabilities. You had two main levels of development that you could have followed in this existence. They were diverse but in both, in the main, you would have been working toward the same objectives. And in one you would have devoted your existence to studying the inner nature of reality. You would have been contemplative. Now to the extreme you would have joined an order, for awhile, of a religious nature and later you would have left it. You would have had neither wife nor child. Your questioning nature would have followed the aesthetic life with devotion and without deviation.

You have not told us a secret but I will speak to you first. You are depressed because of your methods. You cut yourself off from the fount of your own creativity and intuition. Allow yourself to feel the spontaneous nature of your being. Do not attempt to control it. Feel the vitality that is within you show itself in those forms that are natural to it whether they be imaginative, intellectual or feeling reality. You are attempting to sidestep in those methods the basic vehicle of your experience at this point. The freedom and spontaneity of spirituality cannot be maintained or even tasted by denying the reality of the physical being. You use the physical being, and from there and from your emotions you become acquainted with other realities. Your own feelings hold within them a fount of knowledge, and you cut this fount off when you attempt to control them. They will lead naturally, spontaneously, to a spirituality that is a natural outgrowth of present experience. In this manner the natural world that you know will become a threshold of what you call spiritual activity and not a barrier to it.

Now the one goal not only of my existence, and I feel this personally, but of all existence is creativity. I do not speak to you, in your terms, because you find it so difficult to understand or experience the reality of creativity and so all personalities, in whatever their sphere of activity, are involved in the nature of creativity. And this involves the creation of further value fulfillment, of consciousness that is not a burden, as sometimes your consciousness seems to be to you, but joy upon which other universes can also rest. The consciousness and creativity of one, while seeming alone, is not alone but is a threshold upon which others may rest, and a framework from which others may grow.

(To Ron.) Now to our new student, your reaction, you see, this evening and your lack of reaction also is connected with the ideas that you have received as to the nature of meditation and spiritual knowledge.

The ordinary experiences that come to you as you go about your day come to you from beyond both the conscious and subconscious self, and they have come so naturally, as they should, that you did not realize their intrusive nature.