“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You are dealing here, and in this particular case, with probabilities. You had two main levels of development that you could have followed in this existence. They were diverse but in both, in the main, you would have been working toward the same objectives. And in one you would have devoted your existence to studying the inner nature of reality. You would have been contemplative. Now to the extreme you would have joined an order, for awhile, of a religious nature and later you would have left it. You would have had neither wife nor child. Your questioning nature would have followed the aesthetic life with devotion and without deviation.

It does no good to say that one choice was better than the other, and do not worry yourself with such concerns for you are interwoven spiritually with every atom and molecule that exists within those of your children and your wife. And the spiritual isolation that you feel is a reminder of the inner self that only enters into concourse with the flesh but is of itself independent and knows its origin and remembers even through the eons the miraculous exaltation and agony of recognition that the flesh knows.