“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

We have had more enthusiastic responses. Now this is a preliminary. The rest will follow as you are ready for it and if you rush up in rage against me then I will leave Ruburt to face it. So listen. Now consciousness is a beautiful, personified, precarious thing. You cannot really see it or feel it or touch it and yet you know its characteristics. The cat taught you to love again and to open up again. You were also close to hiding within your home with the cat and ignoring physical reality. The love which was awakened is to be directed in other areas, and you may speak when I am finished, but for this one time I will have my say.

When you think in terms, for example, of remarriage or when your children urge it upon you, then you think in terms of yourself. You do not think in terms of those who need love and affection and who are more lonely than yourself, lacking children, and who are looking for not only affection but the simple courtesy that another individual can show by recognizing their existence. You were not able to translate or transform that love outward. At the same time you extended the consciousness of the animal, it became more than it was. Its consciousness was ready to leave and adapt another form.

(To Ned.) You are not clear in your mind, in your subconscious mind, or even your conscious mind at times, as to what you want. We will not bring this up this evening for reasons that you know, but I am aware of them and so are you.

(To Rachel after break:) Now, your husband had a horror of old age. Now, give us a moment—he much preferred leaving his body when he did. He was particularly frightened at the idea of living to an old age. He feared mental disability in old age. He wanted to be free of the body before that time was reached. Now in the two lives immediately previous he stayed with the body at one time until he was 87 and at another to the age of 92 and at a time when such age was quite unusual. He determined that in this life he would leave at the height of his powers and so he did. This was not pre-determined. It was a decision that he made.

You also, however, had connections in past lives, very strong ones. Now, give us a moment here. You may ask whatever questions you have either at another class or later, but give us time to pursue this now. You were members of a group. The campfire that you have experienced in class is connected here. He was a leader of a band of men and women. You were an itinerant traveling tribe. At one time you were his son and at some time I will give you particulars, dates and places. Now I am concerned with your state of mind, not with the state in which you lived. At another time he was your daughter and you were the father. There was an over-protectiveness involved in all of your relationships, an exclusiveness. He was interested in music and the piano. He was afraid for his fingers and his hands. You had several existences together where you were involved with plants and flowers, hence, in this life, your love of flowers and the business that you had.

Give us time here. You have never gone alone. The two of you, together in three lives, lived together until old age. The independence which you have been learning you chose as a challenge and he chose it out of love for you. You decided upon the course ahead of time. Now it is easy for me to say this, but you can be aware of it in your experience if you choose, but he has been watching out for you and many of the decisions you have made, including the purchase of your house, have been overseen by him though he encouraged you to make the decision on your own. There are other decisions you will also make and he will acquiesce in them and do not be so limiting in your ideas, he does not want that either. Peace.

(After break Florence had questioned the reality of time.)

Time perception is your own, including the instruments that test the age of the rock. You form your realm of reality and the time system within it.

(To Ned.) This time I will start with you, and it is up to you this time to bring this one (Sue) along.