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(To Rachel after break:) Now, your husband had a horror of old age. Now, give us a moment—he much preferred leaving his body when he did. He was particularly frightened at the idea of living to an old age. He feared mental disability in old age. He wanted to be free of the body before that time was reached. Now in the two lives immediately previous he stayed with the body at one time until he was 87 and at another to the age of 92 and at a time when such age was quite unusual. He determined that in this life he would leave at the height of his powers and so he did. This was not pre-determined. It was a decision that he made.

You also, however, had connections in past lives, very strong ones. Now, give us a moment here. You may ask whatever questions you have either at another class or later, but give us time to pursue this now. You were members of a group. The campfire that you have experienced in class is connected here. He was a leader of a band of men and women. You were an itinerant traveling tribe. At one time you were his son and at some time I will give you particulars, dates and places. Now I am concerned with your state of mind, not with the state in which you lived. At another time he was your daughter and you were the father. There was an over-protectiveness involved in all of your relationships, an exclusiveness. He was interested in music and the piano. He was afraid for his fingers and his hands. You had several existences together where you were involved with plants and flowers, hence, in this life, your love of flowers and the business that you had.

Give us time here. You have never gone alone. The two of you, together in three lives, lived together until old age. The independence which you have been learning you chose as a challenge and he chose it out of love for you. You decided upon the course ahead of time. Now it is easy for me to say this, but you can be aware of it in your experience if you choose, but he has been watching out for you and many of the decisions you have made, including the purchase of your house, have been overseen by him though he encouraged you to make the decision on your own. There are other decisions you will also make and he will acquiesce in them and do not be so limiting in your ideas, he does not want that either. Peace.

Now, I will tell you a secret, but I will tell our regular students the great horror, the fear, that existed in the mind of our friend, Joseph, during the tour. He was afraid I would raise my voice and he did not know whether or not the microphones would shatter and so I spoke quietly and decorously but it is difficult to show the vitality of consciousness when I have so few methods available without using the vocal cords in joyful abandon.