“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now, you are here for one particular reason this evening whether you know it or not, and it is because you knew our new friends, the Greek twins (Valerie and Vanessa) and so you came when they attended class. Now you were at one time, in the same area given as for the twins, and give us a moment here. You were then a music teacher, teaching the flute mainly, but in the back of your mind you had a great plan which you were never able to bring to fruition in that particular life. And you dreamed a great dream and the dream had to do with an instrument called the piano, and you wondered how you could bring this instrument about and how it could be made and how it would work. And yet in your mind you heard the music. And when you taught the flute, in the back of your mind always, was the idea of the piano. So you tried to make the flute do things that the flute could never do.

You were a stern teacher and yet the love of music in that life sustains you often in this life. Now give us time. You were, in that life, a male. Now this was originally in a province three days away from Athens. Later your reputation spread and you moved to Athens. You had an earlier life at the time when the most important Greek plays were being written. In that life, the earlier one, you were an actor.

In the third quarter of your life there was some strong physical difficulty that prevented you from plying your trade, and during this period more and more you began to emphasize in your mind the reality of this strange instrument called the piano, and in your mind you composed for it. You were connected with a man named Aurelius. He was a statesman and you were for some time connected with his household. Your music was your god and your purpose for living. You gave it everything that you had, and in 18th-century Germany you became a well-known pianist. Now give us a moment. The name appears to be—the last name Ramburg, the first name, I believe, though I am not as certain, Marc. Now your middle name was Aurelius and it was a throwback. There was a small town near Hamburg and here you were a teacher of music, and a pianist in a school that seemed to be connected with a gymnasium or the school was called a gymnasium.

You dealt strongly with martial music and, in these terms, the music was used as a method of discipline rather than for freedom or spontaneity. You found that music had many purposes and uses and could be used in many ways, not only to inspire but to incite. To inspire love or to incite to violence. 1832 there to 1856, a very short life, under I believe a czar, and during this life, you met your present husband who was a young girl, the brother (sister?) of one of your students. This brief life taught you strongly, however, that music, as a portion of creativity, could be violently used by the state and by authority. You were at the time, extremely dogmatic, and you did not allow yourself full freedom with your instrument or with your life. You needed to know, however, the powers of music and the ways in which it could be used so that you would use it wisely, so there is no need to brood.

The music represented your main interest then in several lives, but behind this has always been an interest in emotions translated into some kind of creativity such as music or art; but also, at times an oversusceptibility to emotions so that they drove you, and you could find no escape from them. And you would take one emotion and follow it with great obsession until you found where it led. You were not able to separate yourself from your emotions and to some extent you are learning that now. You are learning that you must. They are not horses to drive you.

You visited one place that was also a scene from a past experience. This from a life in England before the German experience, and this a long life in which you were a woman and unmarried. You were cultured for the times but without way, and made a living writing letters for other people. You had a fondness for music but all your life you copied the notes and letters of others. You learned discipline, for to a large extent you did not allow yourself to express your own creativity but put yourself at the service of the communication of others. You did not allow yourself, even, to communicate through music.