“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You must first of all realize that within you there is somewhere the miraculous knowledge that keeps your body alive and operating. This portion of yourself, despite all your problems, keeps you alive as a physical organism. Its knowledge is beyond the wisdom of any man or woman alive! If that portion of yourself can make all the scientific and biological deductions necessary to maintain your physical organism, then indeed it has the abilities to solve these other problems. When you fully realize this, and you can if you remind yourself of it often enough, you can draw upon this knowledge to solve your problems. If you accept answers from others, you will simply run into the same problem again and again, and you will have solved nothing.

You will learn that consciousness is sacred. And until you learn that truth, you will not be free. You cannot kill another man, you cannot kill another woman and be free. You cannot even eat the meat of a cow, not nonchalantly. Not without thanking the cow for the food and the nourishment which it has given you, not without realizing that the cow, like yourself, is a part of the chain of life without which physically you would not exist and be free.

Now. I have been in one life not only black but a woman in a civilization where neither was appreciated. As I believe I told you before I have been both a man and a woman many times. Both young and seductive and old and wise. I have also been extremely ignorant and unlettered and uncouth. And I believe that I learned very much in those lives in which I was both unlettered and uncouth. I have been ignorant many times. And through being ignorant, I learned the joy and the wisdom that has nothing to do with the intellect.

It is always in a state of becoming. There are always surprises that come out of itself. Therefore, when it began its journey, in your terms, it did not know the ending and the cloud particles did not know that they would become a man or a woman.