“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

I want you, in other words, to make tangible evidence of your own good points and accomplishments, so that when you are lost in periods of depression and negative thinking there will be something that you can look at. And you can say, “I am a person with good points and accomplishments, and here they are listed for me.” It will stop you from tearing yourself down from morning to night. This seems like a very simple suggestion, and yet it is a very valuable one.

([Brad:] “It is just that after so many job rejections I have begun to feel that maybe they are right; if my last prospect, a good one, does not come through, I cannot help but feeling that it is truly the end. “)

Ruburt, in the past, has given you some good advice. No one, and I repeat this, no one can or should make decisions for you. However, I hope to reinforce your inner knowledge that you do have the ability to make decisions, and good ones. You have progressed, you have progressed in the appointments that you have made and kept. But your inner problem does not have to do with work, but why you did not find work in the past. It does not have to do with your marriage. It has to do with those needs of yours that were satisfied within that marriage.

You are endowing her with what you imagine to be highly efficient masculine qualities. You are endowing yourself with what you imagine to be feminine qualities. Now the human being is a gestalt of perception. There are no qualities as such that are masculine or feminine. You are knocking down those abilities that are your own because you conceive of them as feminine. And in your mind you are setting Margo up as highly efficient because she has those abilities that you think should be your own because you think that they are masculine qualities. So you are allowing yourself to behave in what you imagine to be a subservient, feminine behavior. Now this is all a result of your own attitude, and she has reacted to that attitude, and reinforced it, because she wants to be dominant. One portion of her wants to be dominant; the other portion looks to you as a man, and there you fail her, because you refuse to assert the independence that is your nature. It seems to contradict your artistic nature and there is no contradiction. The contradiction only exists in your mind. She looks to you for direction and you do not give it, and therefore—if all within this room will excuse me—she turns into a bitch.

When you look within yourselves and dare to face your responsibilities and your potentialities, you will be free. But you will be free! Any consciousness will develop and will learn. How long it will take you in your terms is up to each one of you individually. But the answers do not come to you soberly. They do not come to you in the guise of equality. They come to you in those things that you seem least to recognize. They come to you in your moments of play and spontaneity and art. They come to you in your dreams. The answers come to you when you accept them. And you are beginning to accept them (to Theodore).

Now. I have been in one life not only black but a woman in a civilization where neither was appreciated. As I believe I told you before I have been both a man and a woman many times. Both young and seductive and old and wise. I have also been extremely ignorant and unlettered and uncouth. And I believe that I learned very much in those lives in which I was both unlettered and uncouth. I have been ignorant many times. And through being ignorant, I learned the joy and the wisdom that has nothing to do with the intellect.

Instead you see, your individuality is used and developed. For your individuality means that there is one more highly unique, original way by which consciousness can express itself. And to lose that individuality, my dear friend, would mean that God had lost one of his voices, and that God had become deaf in one way and that one tone was forever lost.

Now. You carry the burden and the responsibility of that individuality—the burden and the responsibility. And within you, you see, is a portion of All That Is that can express itself uniquely only through those capabilities and potentialities that are yours. And if you deny them, then you deny God his voice to that degree. You deny a potentiality that you and no one else can fulfill. And this does not only apply to the individuality as you know it in this life, but to the energy that is yours that can never be withdrawn in whatever form you find yourself. The memories that are yours now are electromagnetically a part of you; and when your physical form is gone, this remains and you build upon it.