“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You must first of all realize that within you there is somewhere the miraculous knowledge that keeps your body alive and operating. This portion of yourself, despite all your problems, keeps you alive as a physical organism. Its knowledge is beyond the wisdom of any man or woman alive! If that portion of yourself can make all the scientific and biological deductions necessary to maintain your physical organism, then indeed it has the abilities to solve these other problems. When you fully realize this, and you can if you remind yourself of it often enough, you can draw upon this knowledge to solve your problems. If you accept answers from others, you will simply run into the same problem again and again, and you will have solved nothing.

Through the pendulum, you can gain access to your subconscious knowledge, to your motivations. But through negative thinking, you will undo what you learn.

Ruburt, in the past, has given you some good advice. No one, and I repeat this, no one can or should make decisions for you. However, I hope to reinforce your inner knowledge that you do have the ability to make decisions, and good ones. You have progressed, you have progressed in the appointments that you have made and kept. But your inner problem does not have to do with work, but why you did not find work in the past. It does not have to do with your marriage. It has to do with those needs of yours that were satisfied within that marriage.

The relationship can indeed be begun again, but only under completely new terms, and only with self-knowledge on our friends part. Otherwise, the relationship will be continued and you will be no better off than you were before and worse. Self-knowledge on both of your parts is extremely necessary.

Your (to Brad) attitude, changed, will automatically alter her attitude as she reacts to the change in yours. You give each other subconscious cues to which you then react. You can change the cues that you give, and therefore intensely alter the situation, and lead her to self-knowledge.

Eighteen thousand dollars a year will be pretty insignificant 5,000 years from now. The peace and happiness and knowledge that you gain will be yours five thousand years from now. The money will mean nothing to her or to you. And the money has brought her little comfort. Instead it brings her added torment. When you play that game, you are playing a poor game.

Now, you have been what would now seem to you to be chaotic energy—forming universes. You have drifted through interstellar space, not knowing yourself. You have traveled for eons without attaining the knowledge of your identity. You have traveled without knowing who or what you were as elemental particles of consciousness. You have gathered your strength and individuality. You have learned to handle energy. You have added to your consciousness. You have become more aware. You have learned to some extent, some small extent to this time, the responsibility of creativity. You are evolving. Each of you is evolving the forms by which you will manifest yourself. You have come a long way from undifferentiated chaos, in your present terms, to what you are. Notice, I did not say you came from undifferentiated chaos, but what you would now regard as that.

Again, however, remember: The knowledge within yourselves is not sober, it is joyful; and that the energy that comes through this frail frame is also available to each of you, in your own way. You have access to it. And you can use it.