“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now, when you spoke of your friend last time, I told you to distrust easy answers. And in a way, I am not kind to you, for I would have you question before you are ready to question. It is easy to take the advice of others. It is easy to look outward and accept an authority. And there is no authority but the authority that is within your own consciousness—the legitimate reality that is your own!

You may be a follower, and there are many followers, and it is necessary at times to follow. But in important ways, follow the wisdom that is within yourself.

Now, I have said this before: On the physical level, your problem is to find a position. You have done very well lately in meeting your appointments, and this is definitely an advance. On the psychological level, you need to know why the relationship between you and your wife continued as it was for so many years. Most of all you need to know yourself as an individual, with your good points and your failings. But, as long as you continually look to others for advice, you deny your own abilities.

Through the pendulum, you can gain access to your subconscious knowledge, to your motivations. But through negative thinking, you will undo what you learn.

([Brad:] “It is just that after so many job rejections I have begun to feel that maybe they are right; if my last prospect, a good one, does not come through, I cannot help but feeling that it is truly the end. “)

Ruburt, in the past, has given you some good advice. No one, and I repeat this, no one can or should make decisions for you. However, I hope to reinforce your inner knowledge that you do have the ability to make decisions, and good ones. You have progressed, you have progressed in the appointments that you have made and kept. But your inner problem does not have to do with work, but why you did not find work in the past. It does not have to do with your marriage. It has to do with those needs of yours that were satisfied within that marriage.

The relationship can indeed be begun again, but only under completely new terms, and only with self-knowledge on our friends part. Otherwise, the relationship will be continued and you will be no better off than you were before and worse. Self-knowledge on both of your parts is extremely necessary.

It does indeed. It means that you use your strengths however; it means not only that you refuse to be a doormat, but that you accept yourself as a worthy personality, willing to give and to take, willing even to be used at times as you use, but not willing to be a doormat. It means that you must accept your worth and also the responsibility for it. It means that you say, “I come to this marriage as an individual, willing to give and take, with my own good points and failings—but, I do not come to this marriage as a worthless individual willing to take from you whatever you are willing to take and to give. But you must know yourself to do this, and you must be willing to look into yourself.

You must not change in order to get her back; you must change to get yourself back, but a new self. You must change to realize the self that you are.

And I have told you before, there are no accidents! No man is sent accidentally, and innocently, off to war. He who kills must learn what killing is by being the victim. You will learn that you cannot buy peace through violence. You will learn it. You will learn not only that human life is sacred, but that the life within each molecule and atom is sacred.

Now, in your terms, this takes centuries. When you have learned the lesson, it seems as if you have always known it. As I have told you again, and time and time again: Basically there is no such thing as murder, for consciousness continues. But as long as you believe that you kill a man and that you kill him forever, then you must work out that problem. You will learn, you are learning. Some of you will face two generations from now problems that you do not now accept, and you will be the younger generation once more, out with fine, bright and gaudy banners to show your elders and fight for right, and I wish you luck! You will need it.

You will learn that you are a part of the webwork of consciousness. You will learn to be conscious cocreators. You will learn, or you will destroy the planet which you now inhabit! And if you do, your consciousness will begin in another reality. You will learn to recognize within yourselves the joy and the true reality of being. You will learn to distinguish between the reality of joy and pseudorealities that you have created, or you will begin again. But you will learn. You are indeed as blessed as any god and as gifted. When you learn to honor yourselves, you will be free. And you will create with joy and spontaneity when you recognize that within the leaf of a flower the consciousness that is within it, and relate it to yourself, and honor it and treat it as a little brother, you will be free.

When you look within yourselves and dare to face your responsibilities and your potentialities, you will be free. But you will be free! Any consciousness will develop and will learn. How long it will take you in your terms is up to each one of you individually. But the answers do not come to you soberly. They do not come to you in the guise of equality. They come to you in those things that you seem least to recognize. They come to you in your moments of play and spontaneity and art. They come to you in your dreams. The answers come to you when you accept them. And you are beginning to accept them (to Theodore).

You must learn what it is like to be male and female, to be parent and child. And you will go through the cycles until you can relate with others. And if you cannot understand them from your own viewpoint, then you will become them. And from their viewpoint you will see yourselves. This is the meaning of learning. You will extend your consciousness, as you know it, from the self that you know outward and relate to others and understand them. Or you will take their positions and from their consciousness observe the selves that no longer exist in your time. But you will learn.

Now. I have been in one life not only black but a woman in a civilization where neither was appreciated. As I believe I told you before I have been both a man and a woman many times. Both young and seductive and old and wise. I have also been extremely ignorant and unlettered and uncouth. And I believe that I learned very much in those lives in which I was both unlettered and uncouth. I have been ignorant many times. And through being ignorant, I learned the joy and the wisdom that has nothing to do with the intellect.

Each of you has been both male and female. Some of you have been mothers but not fathers, or fathers but not mothers. You have died before reaching adulthood—or you have lived and become senile—or you have lived and attained wisdom. But your identity and your inner self is independent of these reincarnations. And the vitality that dwells within you has known many forms.

Now, you have been what would now seem to you to be chaotic energy—forming universes. You have drifted through interstellar space, not knowing yourself. You have traveled for eons without attaining the knowledge of your identity. You have traveled without knowing who or what you were as elemental particles of consciousness. You have gathered your strength and individuality. You have learned to handle energy. You have added to your consciousness. You have become more aware. You have learned to some extent, some small extent to this time, the responsibility of creativity. You are evolving. Each of you is evolving the forms by which you will manifest yourself. You have come a long way from undifferentiated chaos, in your present terms, to what you are. Notice, I did not say you came from undifferentiated chaos, but what you would now regard as that.

You were conscious then; you did not know how to utilize consciousness and you were in a process of learning but even then you were creative.

Yet consciousness, and your individual consciousness, always was and always will be, in your terms. But you must cease thinking in terms of completion. For in your terms, God himself is not completed. And if he were, that would be the end of creativity and the end of any kind of existence or consciousness.

Creativity is always discontent—and always about new surprises. Therefore, the entity itself is never completed. You are learning to be conscious cocreators. But you do not always know what the creation, in your terms, will be.

Let me emphasize again that in any terms of which you can conceive of a god, such a god is not static. And as soon as you say, “God is this” or “God is that,” God is already something more. And as soon as you say, “My entity is this,” or “My entity is that,” it is already something more. You cannot keep track of your own thoughts. Why do you think you can keep track of your entity or of a god? Even your thoughts are created and they affect realities of which you do not know. Your thoughts have electromagnetic realities in dimensions that you do not even perceive. Your dreams are realities in dimensions that you do not now perceive. Your entities have realities and dimensions that you do not perceive. The gods not only have surprises for you, but you have surprises for the gods and it can be no other way.

Now. You carry the burden and the responsibility of that individuality—the burden and the responsibility. And within you, you see, is a portion of All That Is that can express itself uniquely only through those capabilities and potentialities that are yours. And if you deny them, then you deny God his voice to that degree. You deny a potentiality that you and no one else can fulfill. And this does not only apply to the individuality as you know it in this life, but to the energy that is yours that can never be withdrawn in whatever form you find yourself. The memories that are yours now are electromagnetically a part of you; and when your physical form is gone, this remains and you build upon it.

Now, I admit that no child ever spoke with a voice like mine. Nevertheless, this is because of mechanical difficulties. But the joy and vitality that is mine, and I am far older than you are, can be used by you.

And I still enjoy childlike games. I do not skip a rope or dance through the hula but I amuse myself with thoughts and games that you have long forgotten. And in the ancient nature of my mind, there is still the childlike early wonder about the nature of reality. And if you all wonder who you are and the nature of your reality, then I still astound and surprise myself with my own wonderings for there is much that I do not know.

Now in bidding you all good evening, again I encourage you to find within yourself the source of your own energy and consciousness and strength and to let it sing within you as a vitality of your being. And do not cower and do not cry, but sing in pure joy that your consciousness knows itself and that even in your ignorance you create and give joy to others. And know that there is no end to your consciousness or to the reality of which you are a part.