“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(To Sue.) When you really learn to trust yourself, when you learn emotionally, as well as intellectually, when you learn with your spirit and your gut, then you will learn who you are.

Sensitivity sessions, however, offer you an easy outlet. They satisfy a portion of yourself that can say, “I have been to a sensitivity session and I have seen and felt and touched and I have learned, to some extent, to look within myself,” but you are very careful of where you look. And you are not looking in the correct places and you know it and you do not accept the excuses you are giving yourself. You know that I will verbalize them for you, but you do not need any verbalization, and when you are finished dillydallying about then I expect you to come back to class on a regular basis and to get to work.

One, however, was as a merchant in Germany in approximately 1830, the area now around Austria. You have been rather pedantic in several past lives and given in one particularized in Spain, as a priest, to severe attitudes and ideas that lead you, alternately, toward violence and peace. You believed so strongly in principle, for example, that you would do anything to uphold it and there was little leeway in your personality. You were not able to give and take and, to some extent, that rigidity is still present in your personality. However, you are learning now to mitigate to some extent. You are, in other words, opening up in those areas. You were involved in the Inquisition. Your ideas of good and evil were highly polarized. You are making strides in this existence although you have also encountered some difficulties along these lines for it is not easy for you to be flexible, psychically or spiritually. And you are learning to do this despite the difficulties that have been involved.

Now, I cannot explain this so quickly to you for it is a delicate question and each individual in the room must learn his own way of handling these feelings. But there are ways, and there are creative ways. For as you progress, the annoyances will no longer be annoyances. You will be big enough to absorb them but while they are realities, you must accept them and deal with them as realities and trust in the vitality of life to absorb them harmlessly and even to translate them into constructive activity. I will have more to say on the particular point in other class sessions.