“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

ESP CLASS SESSION, DECEMBER 15, 1970
TUESDAY

I am thinking of you (to Natalie). You have worked so hard recording our sessions.

And (to Theodore) you have been so sensitive over there in the corner. He figures, you see, he can get sensitivity sessions elsewhere. On the other hand, you cannot find yourself by looking outward.

Now, each of you had to recognize your own emotions and your own feelings this evening, to one extent or another. This is your reality. You are used to hiding from them, and the more feelings you inhibit the more you inhibit your natural joy and spontaneity. And, to some extent, our friend over here is correct in that you can use sensitivity sessions themselves as simply another mask, in which case you never show yourself. Instead you display whatever mask you feel is required, which is after all another part of the social game that you always play. When you are doing psychological time, however, you cannot afford to be using energy to hide your own emotions from yourself. You need a feeling of release, you need to be friends with yourself so that you can let your abilities flow freely.

Now, I try to show you all, whenever we have a session, that what you are seeing and hearing is a demonstration of the nature of human personality. And you all have human personalities, so therefore the abilities that are shown in this room are examples of the abilities that you have within yourselves waiting to be developed. I am referring here to many things. I am referring, in the main however, to a deep feeling of oneness with other human beings. The ability to open yourselves up enough so that you can bear to understand the reality of another individual. The more terrified you are personally, the less you dare let down your guard, and you build up psychological walls to protect you. You shove aside the problems of others because they simply remind you of your own. Now, using psychological time and learning to be spontaneous, you can free these abilities within yourself. It will not be an intellectual matter of thinking that you are a part of All That Is. It will, instead, be an emotional awareness of that relationship.

Now, in somewhat the same way must you meet your own aliveness and encounter yourselves, and you cannot do it by digging around the bush. You do it by realizing emotionally two things: your relationship with everything else that exists and your miraculous uniqueness; and the meeting place between the two is where the self is and you think of the self. The words I speak are meaningless if you do not put them to use and if they do not arouse in you a spark of activity. Now, I will lead a sensitivity session here some night that will be some session.

And you (to Harry) have not looked up once and faced me squarely in the eye. That is no way for a leader of sensitivity sessions to behave. That is better.