“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

I’m speaking now of your psychic work and interest. And one of the things that hampers you, what you are afraid of, is very simple: You are afraid that underneath it all you will find the autocratic, cruel, frightening and basically unjust God that lingers in the back of your mind and subconscious. And that despite all your journeys and quests, he will be there to claim you, and that though you try to escape him, that this is the face of the real God that you will find. Now his face, as you conceive of it in your own subconscious, is the voice and the face of unreasoning punishment that can be lowered upon you without warning—the unpredictable punishment for crimes that you cannot remember having committed.

Now. I will tell you that the god in the depths of your subconscious mind is a capricious god who brings death and desolation without warning; who is unforgiving, who is indeed in doubt [sic] (endowed?) with male characteristics highly in character.

And it is this image of a god that you have been seeking to escape and yet fear that you will once again find. Now this is the god of your infancy and shortly after. For in all that you had, those qualities of unbending justice, inhumanely applied, were what clung to your mind and heart and tinged the edges of your soul with fear.