“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now. Give us a moment. We have you in Africa. First of all, in 4 BC, as a woman. Now it is not generally known that there was a civilization at that time, rather well developed, in the southwestern corner of the continent. I will attempt to get at the name—Mabunda—Mabunda. You were black and a craftsman, for there were crafts. You were what is called a “chief hunter.” And on the land, which you then inherited, there were artifacts from a still earlier civilization. And in your hunting expeditions you sometimes came upon these. And in one of your excursions you came upon the image of a small god, long since forgotten by that civilization, and the god was called “Marumba.” It was a small black image—something like the stereotyped Buddha image—but with several differences. The object was of ivory. The civilization, even then long forgotten, had lost all of the knowledge that that earlier civilization possessed. The eyes of the image were like dowels. And from the pupils, lines came outward so that the pupils appeared to be like a half-seen sun or moon, and the lines like rays.

Careful watch was also kept on these smaller sticks. And the time of the seasons was also known from these, and the journey of the stars across the sky. But you came upon this image of a lost god, alone, and you did not tell your friends or associates, but instead you listened. And though it was your first reincarnation, you were alert.

And so you kept solitary vigil with this god, this image. And you watched it alone until finally you learned its message. And in the day, you continued in those pursuits necessitated by your life in the tribe.

Now, the image of the god was to be put into the earth, flat upon it. And by the pressure of the ivory image upon the earth, the months were also told and it sank into the ground, little by little. And you became obsessed with learning the message that this image seemed to give you.

Now. The Torimba tribe in Africa ended up after many centuries in Asia Minor carrying with them remnants of their past civilization. And you were known as a minor god, something that you have never forgotten.

Now. He has been given a highly important symbol which stands in his psyche for the meaning of truth. But each of you are, in your way, to become as gods and accept that awesome responsibility. Now you notice I said to become as gods—and note the plural. There is a unity that unites all plurals. (Long pause.)

I’m speaking now of your psychic work and interest. And one of the things that hampers you, what you are afraid of, is very simple: You are afraid that underneath it all you will find the autocratic, cruel, frightening and basically unjust God that lingers in the back of your mind and subconscious. And that despite all your journeys and quests, he will be there to claim you, and that though you try to escape him, that this is the face of the real God that you will find. Now his face, as you conceive of it in your own subconscious, is the voice and the face of unreasoning punishment that can be lowered upon you without warning—the unpredictable punishment for crimes that you cannot remember having committed.

Now. I will tell you that the god in the depths of your subconscious mind is a capricious god who brings death and desolation without warning; who is unforgiving, who is indeed in doubt [sic] (endowed?) with male characteristics highly in character.

And it is this image of a god that you have been seeking to escape and yet fear that you will once again find. Now this is the god of your infancy and shortly after. For in all that you had, those qualities of unbending justice, inhumanely applied, were what clung to your mind and heart and tinged the edges of your soul with fear.

And to some extent, though I am here, you will at times project that idea of a god upon me, though I do indeed go out of my way to give evidence, at least evidence of grace and humor.

Now this idea of a god lingers or has lingered so that you have strongly sought to escape from it, and so you shall. And are in the process of doing. I will have more to say at a later session to you regarding this.