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Now if I were coming here for fun, I would indeed enjoy smiles and light and conversation. I would not, however, think of coming to such a sober group for fun. I had indeed better put on my (words lost) and instruct you.
I did, as always, have a purpose this evening in making myself known. And if now and then I indulge in a few very human reactions, then you must forgive me. But the matter, the lights, did indeed seem a suitable reaction on my part. I enjoyed it.
Now in time, you will all receive individual sessions, and in time you will receive enough individual sessions so that you will have something upon which to build. And then I may not be so jovial. I am glad at least to see some smiles and broad ones, and laughter. We are, in many cases you understand, more jovial than you, for we can see the humor where in many cases you can not.
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Now I shall keep silent for a while. But I have been here this evening and I will be here a while longer. And I shall leave the light where it belongs.
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Now you should feel a strong vitality here, and you should feel it touch each of you. You all have a vitality and energy that you do not realize that you possess, and it takes such an ancient, old decrepit, sorrowful spirit such as I to tell you. The energy used in this room this evening and in your talk and chatter, that energy barely touches upon the energy that you have and that you have not yet directed.
Now it is well and good for me to come here. You need not think any of this reprimand for you. It is fine and well for me to come here and talk to you, but you are not taking time from your daily activities to develop your own abilities, not to look inward, and you (Theodore) need not be included here. You will have your sessions when you take some time to look within yourselves. You must do part of your own work. I shall not do it for you. I even make Ruburt do his own work and I ride him hard. For I am also some taskmaster, but you must be your own taskmasters also.
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Now I have the serious faces. As our new friend would say, “Now we are getting down to the nitty-gritty.” This is your life, and your life, and your life, and not mine. While I can offer suggestions and impetus, there is no one that can open that door but yourself. You have found the door, you have beat aside the jungles of repressions (words lost) door.
Now that I have taken you all down a peg, remember, there is no grade behind that door. There is only freedom and strength and joy and vitality. I can poke your arm so that you move the knob a bit, but that is all that I can do. You can open the door and I am indeed sure that you will do so. I am also sure that a little talk like this will help you do so quicker. Now, I will cease, and whether or not I shall speak again this evening, who of you knows?
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