“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now, this is a quiet evening and I am pleased with our small gathering. I wanted to tell you that symbolically, you (Brad) are winning, you are making adjustments, in more than weight. For the weight was indeed symbolic. You will find that some further adjustments will be much easier. The inner adjustments came first and the loss of weight later. The loss of weight is a physical materialization of the inner change. And you can expect others to follow.

I wanted to know that I was present here this evening and that I have been listening to your conversation.

Also, there is an old relationship here going back some many centuries and not of an important nature. But there was an acquaintanceship when you knew each other and you realized this.

There is a friend of yours who does not have too much time here. Now I am speaking comparatively and am not giving you times and dates. This is a male. It is a strange relationship you had, for he was an uncle of yours in a past life. And there are undercurrents that still remain. The undercurrents are important—they make sense of a relationship that otherwise would make you question it—for why do you like this person so much, you see? And he was a beloved uncle. Now there seems to be another younger man connected perhaps with one of your daughters, who may be offered either a new job or something new in his line of work that may tax him and yet he will feel that he must accept it—for he is driven by ambition—and he will accept it. There is also a younger woman close to you and with her there will be an entirely new turn, a change of lifestyle.

Your husband, incidentally, in this life has no regrets. There seems to be in his memory an affair—the two of you in a car, after a party many years ago. I am not sure of names here, so there may be a distortion, but the name “Estelle” seems somehow in the background, as if Estelle gave a party or was involved with it—that you attended. Not someone close to you. After the party there seems to have been an argument between you and your husband—and something to do with a lamp. I hope—I hope you did not hit him with it.

She was vital to you as a symbol but not a symbol of independence, but as a symbol of dependence. And neither of you would have agreed to the separation nor would the separation have taken place until both of you realized that it was time for this event to occur.

For many reasons having to do with your own past existence, and with your mother in this life, there was a basic insecurity and a feeling that you were not strong enough to survive on your own. This is what you must solve, and you are now ready to solve it, or the relationship between you and your wife would not have reached this point.

Now. The interpretation is not quite correct. For one thing, this still involves you with problems from a past life. In the episode that we mentioned earlier, and the famine, you are afraid that you could not cope with physical reality. The particular life that we dealt with so briefly made an extremely strong psychic effect upon you for it was nearly impossible to cope, there was no food. At that point in your lifetimes you had no skills. You were not equipped, because of your background, to cope with hard reality. Many others were in the same condition. But it left you, that life, with the feeling that physical reality was so difficult that you could not handle it alone. You resolved, therefore, to store up what food you had in terms of fat and protein to hold you against times of famine.

Consciously you knew this was a rich country in your present life, but unconsciously you held to these old feelings of fear. Now these old feelings also hung over you in that you felt that existence was much more difficult than it actually is now, and you are still relating to this old existence where times were so difficult. Now in that time, you definitely needed—and you had—someone to help you. In that life, in that life of which I am speaking—you had a man, roughly resembling your wife in bone structure, and in temperament. This man was not a family relationship...was not in a family relationship. He befriended you; you depended upon him. You have projected this upon your wife. The man was the kind who gained feelings of superiority and pleasure from helping you, but also helped you quite legitimately and kindly. When you found this sort of a woman in this life, for your own reasons, you were attracted to her. Now she, for quite other reasons, was attracted to you, but you have been terrified that alone you could not make it and would not survive.