“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now, this is a quiet evening and I am pleased with our small gathering. I wanted to tell you that symbolically, you (Brad) are winning, you are making adjustments, in more than weight. For the weight was indeed symbolic. You will find that some further adjustments will be much easier. The inner adjustments came first and the loss of weight later. The loss of weight is a physical materialization of the inner change. And you can expect others to follow.

And do not judge according to your egotistical ideas alone. I am speaking to you now since you have set yourself (Brad) some problems. It took courage to set yourself the particular problems that you did for this existence, otherwise you would have tackled so many at one time, so to speak. There were certain truths that you found difficult to face. Now when I say this, I do not mean that the truths were difficult. I merely mean that in past lives there were certain portions of reality in which you did not have experience. And in this life you decided to experience these. And you are so doing and you are working toward solutions. If you knew this and if you knew what the problems were at this point, the problems would not be as real and the solutions would not be as valid. It would be like cheating in an examination.

There is a friend of yours who does not have too much time here. Now I am speaking comparatively and am not giving you times and dates. This is a male. It is a strange relationship you had, for he was an uncle of yours in a past life. And there are undercurrents that still remain. The undercurrents are important—they make sense of a relationship that otherwise would make you question it—for why do you like this person so much, you see? And he was a beloved uncle. Now there seems to be another younger man connected perhaps with one of your daughters, who may be offered either a new job or something new in his line of work that may tax him and yet he will feel that he must accept it—for he is driven by ambition—and he will accept it. There is also a younger woman close to you and with her there will be an entirely new turn, a change of lifestyle.

Your husband, incidentally, in this life has no regrets. There seems to be in his memory an affair—the two of you in a car, after a party many years ago. I am not sure of names here, so there may be a distortion, but the name “Estelle” seems somehow in the background, as if Estelle gave a party or was involved with it—that you attended. Not someone close to you. After the party there seems to have been an argument between you and your husband—and something to do with a lamp. I hope—I hope you did not hit him with it.

Do not become bored and think that I have no regard for you (Amelia) because I am speaking to our older class members, for you are coming along well with your own progression and your dream memories will get much better.

([Rachel:] “I cannot fathom how I am overextending myself.”)

([Rachel:] “What am I trying to prove in this reincarnation?”)

([Brad:] “In many ways my relationship with my wife has been destructive. I am now at a crossroads where I could end this relationship. However, I feel a strong relationship with her, perhaps a karmic relationship—something I must solve with her in this life. “)

Now. There is not a karmic relationship with her. She stands in your mind for someone else with whom you did have a karmic relationship. That is not, however, your main problem. You have attempted in many ways to set up a strong relationship with your environment. You have tried to do this through weight. You have tried to say, “I am here solidly. (Pause.) Look at me. Who is more real than I for I take up so many inches of space? I weigh so much, I am here.” At the same time, you were afraid of physical reality, and because of your environment in this life, you are afraid that you could not deal with it. You must first prove to yourself that you can indeed deal with it.

([Brad:] “Am I succeeding at all?”)

I did not say “dominant” nor did I imply a relationship of dominancy in those terms. I am speaking of a relationship whereby you as an individual know you can hold your own in physical reality. This does not, therefore, imply a position of dominancy.

Consciously you knew this was a rich country in your present life, but unconsciously you held to these old feelings of fear. Now these old feelings also hung over you in that you felt that existence was much more difficult than it actually is now, and you are still relating to this old existence where times were so difficult. Now in that time, you definitely needed—and you had—someone to help you. In that life, in that life of which I am speaking—you had a man, roughly resembling your wife in bone structure, and in temperament. This man was not a family relationship...was not in a family relationship. He befriended you; you depended upon him. You have projected this upon your wife. The man was the kind who gained feelings of superiority and pleasure from helping you, but also helped you quite legitimately and kindly. When you found this sort of a woman in this life, for your own reasons, you were attracted to her. Now she, for quite other reasons, was attracted to you, but you have been terrified that alone you could not make it and would not survive.