“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now you are all getting it this evening, but it is long due—and it is for this reason that our friend Ruburt did not welcome me with open arms at your last class, for he knew what I was up to. It does you no good for me to come here and give you a symbolic pat on the back, and say, “My chickadees, fly away—you are doing well!”—not when you are not doing well. You are not fulfilling your responsibilities to yourselves simply by coming here once a week. You are fulfilling your responsibilities when you go within yourselves every day. Is the journey, after all, that frightening? The fear is only what you have created yourself. You have made it and placed it before the door.

Now, if I did not know your potentials, then I would not bother you. If all of you did not have abilities that you were not using, I would leave you alone. For to needle you would be cruel and I am not cruel. But I needle you in a righteous cause, and each of you knows it well. The search upon which you have all embarked can only be begun from the center of your own reality. This is what you have to work with. And you have more to work with than you realize. Demand more of yourself- not less. Your (to Rose) information was quite legitimate (this referred to a letter Rose received from England).

Now I would tell you, take one tippy-toe out of your physical time (to Florence)—only one tippytoe, and you will be surprised at the results. If you take the physical time, if you only take 15 minutes a day and make the effort to do so, this will automatically lead on your part to an initiation in the inner self. For the very fact of taking the time will represent a commitment which thus far you have not been willing to make. You had better open that door yourself—or someday I will huff, and I will puff, and I will blow the door down—and then there will be a mighty panic! And what have we here! And all it takes from you is the smallest whisper. You could at least speak through the keyhole. I will tell you, you will not find the answers you are seeking in any other way. There is no other way to find them. And again, you know this way.

Now, there is a tower of strength—but it is not outside yourself, but within yourself. And may I ask you (Brad) in all seriousness, dear friend, who—who do you think you are to refuse to use the strength which has been given to you. And why do you believe that the energy of the universe which flows through frog and tree—does not flow also through your own being—or to refuse to use this tremendous energy because you feel you are unworthy. Is a stone unworthy? For the sun falls upon the stone, and the stone does not say, “Lo and behold, I am a simple stone and not worthy for the sun to fall upon me.” And a flower does not say, “Lo and behold, I am one small flower. In a million universes, who am I that I should grow and develop?” It uses its abilities spontaneously and with joy. Then also, use your own, and accept the energy and strength that is available to you. One flower cannot ask another flower for the sunshine—for the other flower cannot give it. But the sun is there and it shines upon all flowers. Therefore, do not look to another for help—for the help is there and available for you to use. Avail yourself of it.

Now, to prove to you that I am a good and hearty fellow and that I do not always wear a long disastrous face with a chin upon the floor, I will leave you and let you partake of your social discourse. And if you can be merry after this, then all the more power to you. And if you had more of a feeling of joy, you would look inward more easily and if you approached it as a child again, you would find some freedom.

You are the flower that is telling itself not to grow. You can counter this—and to some extent your attendance in class does counter it. You can counter this by changing your attitude. Where is your courage? You are extremely courageous in the exterior environment. We take on racial problems—we deal with the weighty issues of our community. We tend to look boldly and courageously into the problems of our society—but lo and behold, what happens to our courage when we think of looking into ourselves. Now, you are not being intellectually honest by refusing to look into yourself. You are using your intellect instead as an excuse. You are saying, intellectually I will not operate in this particular area. You think you are saying, I am too intellectual to operate in this particular area—my intellect impedes my progress. Your intellect does not impede your progress, your attitude towards your intellect does. Your intellect can be used to examine your progress. It can be an aid and it can help you in your achievement. Your intellect is not afraid of the inner self. It will grow with you gladly and as a friend if you will allow it to do so. Pretend then that the inner self is another land—and that you are a tourist—and highly curious—that you are intellectually and intuitively curious—pretend that all this courage you use in your daily endeavors is an aid to help you find your way in this new and strange and wondrous environment. Imagine yourself using all the abilities, as you look inward, that you use daily in looking outward.

The problems exist in the inner realms—you can solve them there. You help indeed by trying to solve them in your community and in your society. But they will actually be solved in inner reality. Use all of your courage and your brain and solve the problems at their source. Find out what the nature of inner reality is. You can then use inner reality as a secure basis from which you can look outward and see the world’s problems more clearly and in better focus.

I will let our friend (Ruburt) rest—but I will stay in focus—and you had all better stay in focus!

I always indeed have a purpose! By all means now—(to Brad) give me a summary!Iam always interested in how much you remember of what I say at least on a conscious level. Are you going to take your 15 minutes a day (to Florence)? Are you (toBrad) going to cease looking for answers from the outside? Are you going to try seriously to use your own strength?

You do, indeed, and all of you do!

Now, I do not make a practice of being severe with young ladies with whom I am not well acquainted—therefore, I am letting you both off the hook. This does not mean, however, that you can expect such good treatment all the time. You (Laurie) will be here again and I will get to you.

Now I have said what I came here to say this evening. And you all know that there is fondness behind my severity. And you all know I would not huff and puff and blow your door in unless I gave proper warning—and I am giving proper warning! Now, there is joy in all this—and there is spontaneity—and you do not have to think in terms of walking into the inner self in a sack of ashes and crying repentance. If I had gold stars, I would paste one on his (Theodore’s) forehead—but then he would be the one who would have to go to the bank and explain the strange star and not I.

The reason and the origin and the joy of your existence is within you all. And if you let it speak, then indeed it can speak within you in a voice as loud and joyous as any I dare use within the confines of this room. My voice is turned up to show you once again that vitality and your search is not sorrowful and is not for repentance, but is a joyful—and ambitious—and lively thing—and that the energy within you flies through your own being as the birds fly though the sky. And indeed, even as my voice reverberates against the ceiling, be thankful that it does not bounce and fall down and break into rocks upon the floor.

There is always a reason whether I whisper or whether I shout. Energy can be transformed into many patterns and used in many ways. And the energy that can indeed sweep through this smaller plane can be used for many purposes. And I hope it can be used to lead to your instruction because you can all use it!

Now, since it is nearly midnight I will leave you—before I turn into a pumpkin! But to a very real extent, you are all sleepwalkers—for you are far more awake and far more alert in many of your sleep states than you are now. And use many of your abilities to much greater advantage then for there is a much higher state of wakefulness that you do not realize—and yet you know it well. There are states of perception with which you are intuitively aware but that escape you in the light of day.

You can mount the steps of your own consciousness. Then do so. No one will boot you back down the stairs. Now I bid you all a fine good evening—and I give you what blessings I have to give.