“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

It is time to bring the meeting to order because it is time to take most of you to task. I am speaking to the regular members of this class. You are hiding from yourselves—you are not thinking deeply—you are not looking into yourselves, and you are making little effort to use your intuitional abilities or your intellectual abilities. And you (to Brad) are looking for others to tell you what to do.

And our dear Lady of Florence: you have not yet put one tippy-toe in the clear waters of the inner self. You have not even danced about the shore. These inner realities represent your freedoms and your triumphs and your strengths—they represent the wonders that are within you—they cannot be given to you by another. No man’s reality is the same, whether it be physical or spiritual reality. You close the door to your own heritage when you do not look inward.

Now you are all getting it this evening, but it is long due—and it is for this reason that our friend Ruburt did not welcome me with open arms at your last class, for he knew what I was up to. It does you no good for me to come here and give you a symbolic pat on the back, and say, “My chickadees, fly away—you are doing well!”—not when you are not doing well. You are not fulfilling your responsibilities to yourselves simply by coming here once a week. You are fulfilling your responsibilities when you go within yourselves every day. Is the journey, after all, that frightening? The fear is only what you have created yourself. You have made it and placed it before the door.

Now, to begin with, you must take the time. There is no doubt to whom I am speaking (Vera). I welcome you formally (to Jenny and Laurie). You (Rose) are doing well but you are still going very cautiously. You can have far more results even within the context within which you are working—if it were not for this overcaution. But you are making an effort, and where little effort is made, little results can be expected.

When (to Florence) there is a mathematical problem in which you are interested, you try to solve it. You do not solve it by standing in front of it with your arms crossed and closing your eyes and saying, “Surely the solution must be fearful.” Now again, if our Lady from Florence did not have the ability to look inward, I would not try to force her to do so. But you do have the ability.

Now I would tell you, take one tippy-toe out of your physical time (to Florence)—only one tippytoe, and you will be surprised at the results. If you take the physical time, if you only take 15 minutes a day and make the effort to do so, this will automatically lead on your part to an initiation in the inner self. For the very fact of taking the time will represent a commitment which thus far you have not been willing to make. You had better open that door yourself—or someday I will huff, and I will puff, and I will blow the door down—and then there will be a mighty panic! And what have we here! And all it takes from you is the smallest whisper. You could at least speak through the keyhole. I will tell you, you will not find the answers you are seeking in any other way. There is no other way to find them. And again, you know this way.

Now, there is a tower of strength—but it is not outside yourself, but within yourself. And may I ask you (Brad) in all seriousness, dear friend, who—who do you think you are to refuse to use the strength which has been given to you. And why do you believe that the energy of the universe which flows through frog and tree—does not flow also through your own being—or to refuse to use this tremendous energy because you feel you are unworthy. Is a stone unworthy? For the sun falls upon the stone, and the stone does not say, “Lo and behold, I am a simple stone and not worthy for the sun to fall upon me.” And a flower does not say, “Lo and behold, I am one small flower. In a million universes, who am I that I should grow and develop?” It uses its abilities spontaneously and with joy. Then also, use your own, and accept the energy and strength that is available to you. One flower cannot ask another flower for the sunshine—for the other flower cannot give it. But the sun is there and it shines upon all flowers. Therefore, do not look to another for help—for the help is there and available for you to use. Avail yourself of it.

Now, to prove to you that I am a good and hearty fellow and that I do not always wear a long disastrous face with a chin upon the floor, I will leave you and let you partake of your social discourse. And if you can be merry after this, then all the more power to you. And if you had more of a feeling of joy, you would look inward more easily and if you approached it as a child again, you would find some freedom.

Now, perhaps I do not use the correct approach with you (Florence) when I speak of responsibility, but you are responsibility oriented. But a flower does not feel the responsibility to bloom in the sun, it blooms because it is natural to bloom. And it is natural to look inward—it is only you who have set up these barriers and now find it so difficult to break them. And when you begin, I can hear you now—”Why didn’t I know earlier. Instead of hells, I find meadows—instead of darkness, I find light! Why did you not tell me?” Well, I am telling you now—and I will say I told you so.

I do not light into you. I have not the heart to light into you, because you are also giving him (Theodore) strength and you represent a foundation of which he is sure. Psychically you are giving very strongly of yourself in the entire family relationship, in an infinite life-giving way that is extremely important. You are a mother in a way that many mothers are not, and the psychic awareness within you and its vitality goes out like rays to give vitality to your children.

But (still to Vera) I do not want you to feel left out. What a heavenly smile indeed! I am glad I am in the company of saints! Now take your break.

You are the flower that is telling itself not to grow. You can counter this—and to some extent your attendance in class does counter it. You can counter this by changing your attitude. Where is your courage? You are extremely courageous in the exterior environment. We take on racial problems—we deal with the weighty issues of our community. We tend to look boldly and courageously into the problems of our society—but lo and behold, what happens to our courage when we think of looking into ourselves. Now, you are not being intellectually honest by refusing to look into yourself. You are using your intellect instead as an excuse. You are saying, intellectually I will not operate in this particular area. You think you are saying, I am too intellectual to operate in this particular area—my intellect impedes my progress. Your intellect does not impede your progress, your attitude towards your intellect does. Your intellect can be used to examine your progress. It can be an aid and it can help you in your achievement. Your intellect is not afraid of the inner self. It will grow with you gladly and as a friend if you will allow it to do so. Pretend then that the inner self is another land—and that you are a tourist—and highly curious—that you are intellectually and intuitively curious—pretend that all this courage you use in your daily endeavors is an aid to help you find your way in this new and strange and wondrous environment. Imagine yourself using all the abilities, as you look inward, that you use daily in looking outward.

You do, indeed, and all of you do!

Now, I do not make a practice of being severe with young ladies with whom I am not well acquainted—therefore, I am letting you both off the hook. This does not mean, however, that you can expect such good treatment all the time. You (Laurie) will be here again and I will get to you.

Now I have said what I came here to say this evening. And you all know that there is fondness behind my severity. And you all know I would not huff and puff and blow your door in unless I gave proper warning—and I am giving proper warning! Now, there is joy in all this—and there is spontaneity—and you do not have to think in terms of walking into the inner self in a sack of ashes and crying repentance. If I had gold stars, I would paste one on his (Theodore’s) forehead—but then he would be the one who would have to go to the bank and explain the strange star and not I.

Now, since it is nearly midnight I will leave you—before I turn into a pumpkin! But to a very real extent, you are all sleepwalkers—for you are far more awake and far more alert in many of your sleep states than you are now. And use many of your abilities to much greater advantage then for there is a much higher state of wakefulness that you do not realize—and yet you know it well. There are states of perception with which you are intuitively aware but that escape you in the light of day.

Now our Dean has not experienced this yet. Our friend Ruburt has—and several of you have the ability to do so. And it would make your ordinary everyday intellect seem like an idiot child indeed—for you have no idea of the ability of your intellect as it really operates. Now I speak to you not idly—and these are not mere promises thrown about. These are realities that you can experience. These are a portion of your own as well as mine.

You can mount the steps of your own consciousness. Then do so. No one will boot you back down the stairs. Now I bid you all a fine good evening—and I give you what blessings I have to give.

Tell him (Ruburt) I do not want him wearing any false eyelashes in our sessions—they do not fit my personality!