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That position had so many facets that it was hard to follow—that they were hard to follow—and even I had difficulty keeping track of the continuing saga of medical detail. Doctor Kardon had come that afternoon. I told myself I’d react only to constructive suggestions, but I soon felt knocked down by her interpretation of events. No blood test results had really come through yet (from St. Joe’s last week). She had said earlier they would merely give indications that vasculitis might be present or might not be present—they wouldn’t say yes or no.

(9:29.) It made good sense enough to take the artificial thyroid that my body obviously was demanding. To introduce an entirely new line of drugs, with known side effects, for a condition that could be quite transitory—if I had it —went against everything that I believed. So Dr. Kardon’s visit was behind Robby’s suggestion that I look at my own sinful-self material, and I intuitively felt that the time was probably right. I browsed through one notebook, is what it amounted to.

The medical tests along the way proved that I did not have some of those most frightening conditions. Other tests that I recall made it clear that my heart and liver and internal organs were in good shape—but Doctor Kardon had seen them newly threatened by the vasculitis, and I felt, “My God, what a merry-go-round of disastrous expectations must everywhere color the medical profession and its practitioners and patients.”

(The session itself contains many references to Dr. Kardon’s visit yesterday, but below is a copy of the notes I made after she left the house. I recommend that Jane not read these. They’re included here simply for the record.

You both did extremely well yesterday—not calling Kardon, and sidestepping what could have been another highly charged experience. [...]

[...] I’d told Jane to use suggestion so that she wouldn’t be bothered by whatever Roe might say, but suspected that Roe would want Dr. Kardon to examine the bedsores, and probably this would lead to a demand that Jane would go back into the hospital. [...]

[...] The only difference that I see now is that Dr. Kardon has her on alternating doses of 175 and 200 mcg’s of Synthroid instead of the beginning 50. [...]

[...] We received an unwelcome surprise when Kim told us that on November 18 Fred Kardon had signed a paper stating that Jane no longer required acute care. [...]

(Pete surprised me by saying that he’d talked to Fred Kardon yesterday, here in town. [...]

(See my hospital notes today for details regarding my talk with Fred Kardon here at the house this morning. [...]

(Jane is off the Kefzol, the antibiotic Fred Kardon had her on after she broke her right leg. [...]

[...] I wanted to tell you that Ruburt is already something of a mystery to your Dr. Kardon. [...]

[...] Today Ken Wrigley echoed Fred Kardon’s sentiments re Jane returning to the house—in favor of it, much to my surprise, and Jane’s too. [...]

[...] I’d mentioned while she was still in bed this morning that I was going to call Dr. Kardon tomorrow morning, and tell her I wanted Jane back in the hospital. [...]

[...] I probably won’t call Dr. Kardon or the hospital tomorrow, but will simply wait for nature to take its course, since except for the movement in the knees—which hasn’t increased—it’s been all bad, so the general outcome for the future is all but inevitable. [...]

(Jane told me that Fred Kardon was in to see her this morning. [...]

(This morning I called Pete Harpending, and passed on the information from Jane that Fred Kardon was out of town this week—on vacation in Florida. [...]

[...] I did think to ask Joan about what she’d told us a couple of weeks ago when Jane’s Synthroid dosage had been cut down by Fred Kardon. [...]

(After supper Jane asked me if I agreed with her decision not to call Dr. Kardon, when I hadn’t thought of doing so to begin with—especially in light of the high bill we’d received from St. Joseph’s to begin with, for the last finger episode. [...]

(Last Monday afternoon Dr. Kardon’s nurse called to give us an appointment at St. Joseph’s emergency room at 2:45 PM Friday, to see Dr. Sobel from Ithaca. [...]

(At my request Mr. Wrigley is going to ask Jane’s doctor, Marsha Kardon, if the blood test she’s due for May 3 can’t be run here at the house instead. [...] He said Dr. Kardon herself could take the blood from Jane; and she has promised to visit us here.

[...] A patient in 333A was having heart problems—so the people came running down the hall pushing the emergency heart/breathing machine, including Doctor Fred Kardon, who said hello as he passed 330. [...]

[...] She saw Fred Kardon this morning, who asked her his usual questions. [...]

(Seth’s statement that Jane doesn’t have an infection reminded me that months ago Marcia Kardon had very adamantly told us that when a person has a catheter inserted “they always—always—get an infection.” [...]

[...] In color: I’d looked out the south window of the bedroom to see Fred Kardon standing out on the lawn; he was talking to someone else who was doing some kind of work near the big pine tree that grows up over the corner of the house. [...]

(In the hall outside the emergency room I met Fred Kardon, who asked me how Jane is doing. [...]

[...] Once again we wondered how much more of a boost her thyroid medication needed, but we haven’t heard from Dr. Kardon about it—or anything else, for that matter, since we had the meeting with Dr. Sobel last Friday, May 28. [...]

[...] Fred Kardon must have seen the stone, Jane said, since the word was relayed through him that that’s what it was—a bladder stone. [...]