(Once again, as I had before the deleted session for Monday the 16th, I told Jane that I was close to a “breaking point.” [...] I took soda before lying down with Jane this afternoon. [...]

(I’m naturally worried that I’ve created a physical condition, and so is Jane. [...] Jane and I discussed the possibility that I may have an ulcer.

(In the deleted session for April 16, 1979 Seth remarked that Jane “used to feel embarrassed because he made more money in those terms than you, and certainly this played some role initially in the symptoms.” I asked that Seth comment as to whether any such mechanisms might still operate with Jane.

[...] It also insisted I didn’t have a hernia or an ulcer, etc., although I told Jane that depending on what Seth said tonight I may seek medical help tomorrow. [...]

[...] Jane yawned again and again. [...] I asked Jane if she wanted to end the session, but she chose to continue in spite of her yawns.

(Jane and I worked on proofreading Seth’s book for an hour or so after supper, and then went for a walk. [...]

[...] Jane had finished the Introduction to Seth’s book today. [...]

[...] Jane wanted more material for the Appendix of Seth’s book. [...]

I was between projects after The God of Jane. [...] I took that to mean that I would shortly be on the move again creatively, and to be prepared, so I had Rob help me move all my writing materials from the small breezeway where I’d finished The God of Jane, into the new patio back room, as a gesture of being ready to start over.

1. Jane Roberts writes in The God of Jane: “Since late 1963, I’ve clocked approximately 4,000 hours of trancetime, during which the Seth sessions have been held twice weekly. [...]

3. See Appendix A for Jane’s material on how some of her own thoughts “relate in one way or another to the thoughts of others.” Included also are excerpts from Seth’s material on a different prediction experience of Jane’s.

BY JANE ROBERTS

1. With a little reflection it becomes obvious, but I think it important to note that Jane’s expression of the Seth material is certainly the result of her direct cognition. [...] From the very beginning of the sessions, in late 1963, I appreciated the speed with which Jane delivered the Seth material, and began recording the times involved throughout each session. [...] And when Jane speaks extemporaneously for Seth, her delivery is even more rapid. [...]

[...] Jane has a deep love for words. Words, however, can be very elusive tools, and vary from language to language, although intrinsically through the Seth material Jane conveys depths of meaning that continue to develop within whatever language others may cast it. [...] In her own direct cognition Jane deals with feelings and ideas that are often quite divorced from any such reliability and acceptance.

(This morning I showed Jane the portrait in oils that I’m working on. It’s of one of my imaginary male heads, and I began it a week ago, following Seth’s material on art for me in the private session for April 9. [See Note 1 for the last session.] I explained to Jane that even while it’s incomplete, the painting contains improvements that I can already tell will be developed further in the next one. [...]

Without being specific before the session, Jane said she felt “lots of stuff from Seth churning around.” [...]

(While Jane and I were on vacation in Florida in July, I rather severely sunburned my feet; I had trouble walking for several days, but was able to drive home on schedule. The episode took place while we were staying with Jane’s father and his wife in Daytona Beach. [...]

(It wasn’t until we were back in Elmira that I realized Jane and I had missed a great chance to use our abilities. I talked about how I should have had Jane hypnotize me, for instance, in Florida as soon as we realized how bad the feet were—giving me suggestions for an extra quick recovery, etc. [...]

(At 9:30 Jane said: “I feel real odd. [...]

(Jane added that “If I opened my mouth, I feel like my voice would really fly out real loud, as though I’ve got all this energy and don’t know what to do with it.” [...]

[...] This might not be unusual, though the words in this context are a bit out of the ordinary; and Jane and I wonder whether these, repeated twice among what seems to be gibberish and other unrelated words, might not be the first groping attempts of Frank Watts to make contact with us.

[...] Jane and I sat facing each other with the board on our laps, hands on the pointer but asking no questions. [...]

([Jane asked] “Are you there, Edgar Cayce?”)

(To date, this is one of but three answers Jane and I have received that seems to be gibberish. [...]

[...] Jane was once again very well dissociated, and took a few minutes to get her eyes open. During break we discussed the fact that Jane’s ESP students had plenty of questions for Seth to discuss. It seemed they always could use a session, and I wondered if Jane had the energy for the extra demands; and to what use the class sessions would be put.

[...] Jane said that during break she was in a rather “half and half” world —half in trance, half not. [...] She is much farther out than she used to be, she said, and feels now more and more like Seth and less like Jane. [...]

(Jane asked me if I noticed any physical changes in her face toward the last, since she was so strongly aware of Seth. [...] I think it quite possible that Jane’s emotional appreciation of the Seth personality accounted for the changes as she was involved in delivering the material.)

(Jane began speaking in a very quiet voice, but quite actively, and with her eyes open at once.)

(4:55 p.m. “I should tell you,” Jane said as I lit a smoke for her, “but as soon as that program was over, I knew he was going to mention the Abominable Snowman. [...] The TV show had ended at 3:00 p.m. Jane also said she “saw,” or remembered, what the insect trap looked like, but she couldn’t make a drawing of it. [...]

[...] Today Jane and I sort of disagreed [I think] on what Seth was saying. [...] Jane doesn’t create a reality in which the event is absent from her memory, or never happened, that I know of.

[...] Jane has been dead for 259 days.

(This material came through after Jane and I had watched a program yesterday and today called In Search Of — old reruns featuring Leonard Nimoy. [...]

(While we were in Rochester I mentioned a question to Jane that I thought Seth ought to consider. According to the chronology of events that Jane made up from her old notebooks last year, the symptoms began before the psychic manifestation of her abilities. [...]

(In a recent deleted session, Seth told us that Jane’s symptoms deepened after she held a session for a friend of Venice McCullough’s a few years ago. The friend committed suicide, and Jane regarded the session as a failure. [...]

[...] Even though Jane told me she felt Seth around at 9 PM. [...] Jane said that when I brought up the question again tonight she felt the shuddering return, although it was located farther down her torso, in the stomach area, this time. [...]

(This is all news to Jane and me. [...] Jane and I bought the car after the flood also.)

[...] Jane was dissociated as usual. [...] When I said the session was well under way by now, Jane pointed out that her definition of the beginning includes all material given up until and including first break.

(While the three of us were discussing the session, and the fact that Jane seemed much less tired than before the session began, she suddenly began dictating again. [...] Jane spoke for most of the time while seated upon the table. [...]

(A husband and wife who were scheduled to witness the session tonight, notified Jane they would be unable to attend because of business pressures. [...]

(Jane was not nervous before the session. [...]

(By 8:50 Jane was nervous as usual. [...] I had paper tapes ready to check Jane’s finger circumferences if the occasion arose. Jane began dictating at 9 PM in a soft and low voice. [...]

(At 8:30 Jane and I tried psychological time. Jane did not notice anything; I obtained the results detailed on page 48.

(At 4:45 PM, while talking to Jane in the kitchen as she prepared supper, I experienced the now familiar feeling of enlargement in my right hand. [...]

[...] Jane was fairly dissociated. [...]

[...] After supper Jane told me to come out to the card table with the notebook at 8:15. [...]

(Jane replied that her condition bespoke a generalized relaxation—which was beneficial, of course. [...]

(Jane’s delivery had been sporadic in an odd way, her Seth voice subdued, making me feel that she could lose the session at any moment by slipping off into sleep. [...]

[...] “Well, you got something,” I said to Jane, almost laughing. [...]

(This is Jane’s first session in six days — quite an unusual occurrence for her.

(On March 29, last Thursday, I failed to get to the hospital to see Jane for the first time since she was admitted last April 20. [...]

(Jane now has over $7000 in donations through Maude Cardwell’s efforts in Reality Change.

(Jane did very well today, reading the last session, plus the one for March 19, which Seth wants her to review every so often.

(We’re still in the process of checking the copyedited manuscript for God of Jane, although we’re nearing the end of that job. Today Jane told me that she thought Seth would go into the famous—or infamous—disclaimer that Prentice-Hall wants to attach to Mass Events. We’d received a formal letter about that from the legal department of Prentice-Hall last Friday; today Jane had been “picking up” on it. [...] Just before the session, Jane said that she thought Seth was “rather cavalier” in his attitude, and that my own wasn’t very good. [...]

[...] Jane had been tempted to pass up the session and continue work on God of Jane, but I reminded her that I could use Seth’s information on the disclaimer in our reply to the legal department at Prentice-Hall. [...]

(Jane didn’t feel too well before the session, what with all her bodily changes still taking place, but she did well once she began the session.)

(In our defenses here, I’ll digress a bit to note that although we may do that on occasion, Jane and I certainly do not blame others anything like we used to, or the way we still see others do. [...]

[...] This material stemmed from a discussion Jane and I had had the other day, re selling paintings and how best to go about it. I had forgotten the conversation, as had Jane, and we hadn’t asked that Seth discuss it this evening.)

[...] Jane was out of trance quickly. She remarked that she was certain that as Seth she could see better without glasses than she could see without glasses as Jane. [...]

[...] Jane was out of trance quickly. [...]

[...] Jane certainly didn’t know about this consciously, for I have said nothing about it to her.

[...] Today by telephone Nancy verified Seth, in that her mother is seriously ill at Mayo Clinic; the mother has been ill for some time, but was not, for instance, the last time Jane talked to Nancy, sometime prior to the 358th Session. The two seldom see each other since Jane left nursery school.

(The usual session time of 9 PM came and passed while Jane and I talked. [...]

[...] Jane began speaking while sitting on the divan once more, her eyes opening at times, her pace rapid.)

[...] Jane was well dissociated, retaining little memory of what Seth said. [...]

(The first session in the Preface for Volume 1 of Dreams is a private one that Jane delivered on September 13, 1979. [...] [And wouldn’t you know it, I told Jane: My last paragraph for Mass Events is about the biannual migratory flights of the geese.]

Last night, as I began typing Monday’s 915th session, I asked Jane why Seth hadn’t just called his “invisible particles” CU’s, or units of consciousness, as he’d done earlier in Dreams,² and as he’d always done in his other books. [...] In order to help Jane feel better, I speculated that he must have had his reasons for doing this, and that of course a certain amount of repetition is necessary in each book in a series: The restatements not only furnish a foundation for new material, but enable each book to be complete in itself. [...]

In spite of those thoughts, Jane was still rather upset and out of sorts a day later as session time approached. [...]

Then, as we waited for a delayed session, Jane received material from Seth in which he very nicely explained his use of “invisible particles” on Monday evening—and since tonight he goes into his reasons for doing so, there’s no need to give them here. [...]

(When Jane expressed a willingness to hold the session, she sipped a glass of wine while we waited for Seth to appear. [...] Jane took off her glasses, closed her eyes and began to speak in a quiet voice.)

(Note that the last line above says I saw Jane again in the dream. [...] I may very well have actually seen Jane twice in the dream.

(The last in the series took place last night, and since it dealt with extreme situations concerning my own death, Jane and I thought it wise to inquire into it. [...]

[...] Part of the time I looked out of a window made up of many small panes of glass, and saw Jane on a swing outside the window. [...]

(After supper this evening Jane told me she thought Seth might talk about dreams and the subconscious at the session. In the event that Seth might do this, and also discuss our dreams, as he has mentioned doing by way of illustrating the material, I read to Jane just before the session began two very vivid dreams that I have had within the last two weeks, involving my father and other members of my family. The material I read to Jane was from my dream notebook, which I have finally begun.

(Jane was not nervous before the session. [...]

[...] Jane began dictating on time, in a voice somewhat stronger than usual. [...]

(Here Jane smiled broadly as she paced about.)

This appendix contains three of Jane Roberts’ (unfinished) essays on different kinds of “prediction” and precognition experience. Also included is one excerpt by Seth about Jane’s talents with a similar kind of experience.

Jane discusses “prediction” and precognition in her books: How to Develop Your ESP Power, Adventures in Consciousness, Psychic Politics, and The God of Jane.

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[...] Jane usually wrote several drafts for her “own” books, but spoke her books by Seth in final draft form.